todae morning went for poa remedial

Monday, October 31, 2005

todae morning went for poa remedial...i dunno is overall below 70 or SA2 below 70 then need to go but forget it...then we did 3 qns on TPL & B/S...then after that walked down the hill wif Yvonne and Jacqueline...we talked abt many things...then went home had biscuits as brunch...then play com...practice organ...did composing and improvising of songs...then watch tv and did some work...then did household chores...so bored...

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11:11 PM

Sunday, October 30, 2005

ytd went for organ...learned new song...however, i'm still stuck at the song Tamashi..the anime...then now a Donald Duck song...dunno wad Chum...dunno wad...but den sort of Euro beat /techno...then i played Lawrence of arabia...then i accidentally step onto the pedal then that Benjamin aka Jun Yan said he didnt sabo me then dunno wad...wadever...then the "Yellow-shirt" guy played Final Fantasy...so di siao wan...go put the tempo at 40%...wa lao...so slow...then still got play other songs and also did improvisation...then Benjamin played Final Fantasy X-2's 1000 words...i'm not sure if it's that version...then went to eat Sakae Sushi wif my parents and elder bro...then went home...

todae went to help my parents...so pissed off...got so many people wad then must wait wan rite then one elderly said i dunno then dun come help la...but i said wait liao wad...no patience wan...then got one is i told her liao that there isn any more ingredients in the porridge liao...then she said okie and i gave her the bowl then i tell her again but then she dun wan liao...freak out...then worse thing is that my salary cut down another $5...it has been cut for the 2nd time...consecutively...if this continues, i will not help out anymore lor...but i must prove to all of them that wad Ms Lim had told me...i cant accept failure easily and gets depressed easily...so i must prove them wrong...but can i? i doubt so...

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5:52 PM

Saturday, October 29, 2005

ytd was the last day of sch...gotta bring lots of stuff back home...actually not that much...then went back to sch wif my mum and bro...then JO talked to my bro abt my results...haiz...i haven even see the result slip then my bro see first...quite discouraged wif my results...but i had expected...cos i didnt put in my best effort...my class position goes up by 2 but level drop by 2...then JO says dun worry much...haiz...then after that went to see Ms Lim...she keep on asking why my maths deteriorated a lot...then maybe cos of my time management bah...JO and Ms Lim both also say abt my time management and i haf high expectations and etc...haiz...then went to look for Ms Wong...then talked abt CO stuff...then i went for theory lesson...for this 2-3 weeks, i'm doing the past year papers...then can go to grade 5...so slack...nvm...i try to finish my grade 5 by dec...then after that i went to meet shi hua to pass her her stuff...then bought food for my family...went home...

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8:49 AM

Saturday, October 22, 2005

these few days arent good for me...got back results and they are not convicing...got to noe more knowlege and noe more of my personality...i am a BAD person...the one who is a nuisance to the world...she's always the odd one...everyone hates her to the core...she cant do well in anything...be it studies or music or sports...she cant even do sumthing that a 3 year old can do...arent she stupid...haha...of course she's that stupid...nobody cares to bother this person anymore cos she dun bother to care abt herself...she's 15 yet she dunno what is rite or wrong...she is the stupiest person i ever noe...even her father dun have any trust in her...her cousins and friends dun wanna be wif her...how i wish she can die earlier or immediately...

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12:10 PM

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

ytd was bad...i'm gonna flunk me MEP...at most la...the most i can hope is a C6...but then cant also like this compare la...actually i shouldnt pick up MEP...first, i dun even haf a grade 5 theory standard or even a grade 3 until i started learning theory this year...now i'm still at grade 4...left a scetion to grade 5...i also wish that i could learn faster but it's already very fast le...i may fall any time or should i say that i'm always maintaining a D7, E8 grade...let the time determine bah...

todae someone told me that i'm drifting...liao...i also feel so...esp during A math and A math tuition...i haf let that person down...and my physic test wasnt reflecting...and i found that i haf lose my confidence even b4 the eof papers...wad am i gonna do now...and i haf chatted wif my dad and mum for some time...but then, my dad gave me a subtle hint of wad he wanted me to pick up...is this forcing or advicing? i'm now in a loss...but that person told me that he dun wan me to be in a complete loss for now...

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9:01 PM

Saturday, October 01, 2005

todae woke up at 11am...then had lunch at 12 plus...went for math tuition at 1 plus...tuition finished at 4 plus...went for organ lesson...todae we learn a new song...i think i heard b4...it's like in an anime wan...then todae the expert didnt come then my turn to take over his place for the song...haha...so pai seh you noe...he so pro then i so lousy...then went home...tml still must help my dad and then Mon still got EOF MEP WRITTEN exam...i sure screw up the whole paper wan....

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11:01 PM

todae is the end of year for eng

Friday, September 30, 2005
todae is the end of year for eng...hope that i can at least get a B4 for overall...wish bah...feeling sad...i surely fail badly wan...if not then a mere pass...todae learn new topic for theory...hope to take grade 8 theory and grade 6 pract by next year june if not i can take pract 1st by march...i only wish to focus more on my studies now...i neglected on my studies for years...i didnt put in a single effort in my studies or should i say is everything...haiz...
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11:17 PM
Thursday, September 29, 2005
todae was feeling quite despondent...cos of many things...but i thought for a very long time le...i wish that i could haf another chance so that i can make up my mistakes...i cant forget abt the MEP pract on mon...i starting was too fast le but i try to slow down then cant...while playing, i noe i made lots of mistakes and i noe where i stand...i made the most mistakes on my pedals...then i almost cry...then Mr Lee asked me to play some parts of other songs for him to listen so that he can tell me what to play for the 'O' levels...i haf chosen the wrong song this time...actually not really wrong la is cos the tempo is moderate...then he ask me to choose one that is slow and one fast for 'O' levels...it may be a big challenge to me cos my organ does not really haf the function for the tempo...and i would always play faster than the original of the fast song or slower when the song is slow...like The Entertainer that i played for months b4 going for exams last grade...but then it is always like this wan lei...i practice real hard and well wan rite, the examiners dun choose it and choose those which i play only recently...then i also think that i'm too selfish cos i wan a new organ but then it costs quite a lot...if i every week book a studio, i will eventually broke...the non-peak hours also need $10.50 for an hour...and i pay it using my pocket money...i still owe my brother $100 over dollars and $80 over dollars to my dad...still need save up for overseas studies + overseas trip, organ exam, MEP and many many more...then Jason Sien sms agian...i thought that he wun sms le cos it's nearly a month since he last call and sms me...but todae he asked me wanna meet him anot...i'm now confused...tml is Eng enf of year le...jus hope that i can do well for all the subjects this time...
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9:23 PM
Wednesday, September 28, 2005
I'm officially 15 todae...actually quite despondent but also jubilant...so sad cos my closest cousin who will without fail at least sent me a greeting and give me a present every year...maybe cos of my father and my uncle's misunderstandings bah...but very grateful to you all...esp Shi Hua, Eliz, Ling, Shu Wen, Shu Yun, Mei Fang, Hui Xian and many more...thanks for all the greetings...presents and the cake...i haf waited for years but that wish will nv fulfil...
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8:16 PM
Sunday, September 25, 2005
i was actually quite jovial the past 2 days cos of some improvements in my music...both theory and pract...but then i'm quite scared of tml's MEP pract...i surely out of beat wan lor...nvm...jus wish myself good luck...must haf more confidence...then todae went out wif Shu Wen and we went to the Central Lending Library...go up every floor...had a great time...then went to the Mac nearby...taught each other a and e math...did my poa...and speech...then i call my dad asking if they are going out to eat or wad...then we went to Tiong and i bought a slice of Black forest cake for my dad as it was his birthday todae...jus wanna say that though i hated you for some time, you are still my dad and i'm sry for was i haf done...anyways, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU! i cant really promise that i can fulfil your dream as it is really to my extent that you cant force me to study wad i dun really like and haf to act infront of all my peers, cousins, uncles, aunts and etc. that i really like to study that particular course in poly....however, you are still my dad...then i came home saw no one at home...my illusion tells me that they are out for dinner...i'm worried that he wun eat that cake and i will be angry...they are not gonna celebrate my birthday for sure...last year still scolded me on my birthday...wad can i do...i cant scold them...nvm...
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7:06 PM
Sunday, September 11, 2005
ytd went to help my parents at their stall...it's been 2 months since i last help them and a customer was not very happy abt my service...i added the toppings that she wanted but then that is the most i can add for her...or else i will be sacked by my dad...the ingredients for the food need money also lei...then forget it...worse one was being sort of scolded at last time...then went home by myself...until 4plus went for organ lesson...i was quite despondent cos i was being asked to play Lawrence of Arabia on the teacher's organ...i didnt practice at home so went there only noe how to play rite hand and pedal...then the other guy played very well...then teacher checked on our playing of part a to the chorus there on each of us...actually it's not that difficult...but it jus needed some time...then we also played Whiter shade of pale, Voyager, Final Fantasy and ET...luckily teacher didnt ask me to play ET again...then i booked a studio for my MEP prac on 26th sep...the studio with stagea and costs me $15.75 an hour...cos peak hours...then at night when watching tv that time, got a stranger knock on the door very forcefully and trying to open the door...then he was shouting very loudly also...i was very scared...then my father act one lor...go open the door then the person said sry cos wrong house...i thought that person was JASON SIEN lei...now i so scared...todae did my hw...watch tv and maybe going out wif my parents later...then packed my MEP file and i think that we are going to get bak our test paper tml and i dunno how...i screwed up the paper surely die wan lor tml...must do well for prac liao and my EOY...o ya...ytd had a bad dream again...i now really very scared...
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3:52 PM
Sunday, September 04, 2005
todae woke up very late...11am...then did some hw...then ate my breakfast cum lunch...i cant eat finish then throw away...my elder brother went to hospital for check up...the doctor say he is stomach swollen then etc...luckily no need operation...i hope i'm not the same prob as him...mine is either my illusion or more complexed...cos he need to go hospital then i had to stay alone at home...my parents 4plus then came home...i practice my organ...i didnt dare to asked my mum abt buying an organ for me...i gave her subtle hints...but no response...forget it...i also noe i'm so lousy...buy le also no diff...then i'm also wondering...if i really had probs wif my health then i would be the one spending the most money among my brothers...then Jason Sien sms again...i ignored him...then i dunno why todae keep on scaring myself...now my heart feel quite pain...and the kidney there...but i think is i think too much le bah...if it's really that pain then i wun be here blogging...
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9:43 PM
Friday, September 02, 2005
ytd went to PS cos i haf booked a studio for practicing...costs me $10.50 an hour...it was great cos i get to use the Stagea...and EL-900...there are also other models but as gd as these 2...after that, went to meet Shu Wen, Shu Yun and Eliz...i bought dark choco and biscuit for my 3 meals as i didnt eat yet and even when i reach home...then we waited for Emily and went to play pool...i am so lousy...then abt 6 or 7plus, Leslie, Regan, Mayson, Jun Hong, Jin Hao, Tracy, Joacquim came...they played lan games...then we play until 8 plus went home...then i watch tv until 11pm...did my theory hw until 12plus...todae went back to sch...dunno why i lost my chinese "si han" book...strange...i asked a lot of people they say got hear teacher calling my name when giving out that time...the we get to noe our overall marks...i fail Eng...why isit always Eng that i failed...but nvm...still got end of year to catch up...everyone should also jia you...i felt disappointed cos some of the classmated failed 3 subs then i only fail 1...i think i didnt care abt their concern...i'm so SORRY...i think that my expectations are always very high...however, no matter how much effort i out in, i will nv get gd results...and my parents will nv be gratified...went for theory lesson...i'm elated...luckily my effort out in ytd is not wasted...i spend one hour doing all 8 pages and i need not redo any...todae i haf learned a lot of new things...i would feel jubilant if i had learn somthing new, understand it well and knowing hoe to do...then went to a Jap restuarant wif my parents...ate Tom Yam ramen...so spicy that my gastric hurts when i reach home...but not that pain...i dunno why these days sometimes will get gastric pain then heart pain and my old sickness...ate a ice-cream mooncake...did my theory hw again...
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11:56 PM

2005_08_01_archive

Wednesday, August 31, 2005
todae is teacher's day celebration...we as upper sec had to walk round the sch for 2 rounds...then got performance and etc...then we went back to class...we made a lot of noise and also tease others...lol...haiz...then we went back to our pri sch...i only get to see Ms Evelyn Goh...nonono...it should be Mrs Evelyn Tay...i still cant get use to her "new" name...it's dunno how long ago liao...last year and still cant change the habit...then i doubt that many 6e pupils got go back see her...i quite elated cos abt 3 years liao still remember me...then she still say that i'm still that shy-_-''' and etc...then saw Qian Wei and Rachel Boey...but i think they didnt haf much impression of me but cos pri 4 classmates but they are really 2 of my good friends i had in Pri 4...and Alicia, Pei Wen...

then after that went to play bball wif Yee May, Georgina, Siti, Hui Ying, Zhi Long then Gah Yan came then followed by Shu Wen and Shu Yun...my skills are slacking...then i gtg 1st cos got a math tuition...sian...the tutor spend 1hr explaining and todae's tuition is a total of 2hrs 30mins...todae learn abt Binomial Theorem...did some qns on it and last week's hw on arc length...i feel slack...i only noe how to do one step and it's the 1st qn for Binomial Theorem i did...sad lor...got tuition still so lousy...then came home see hp...that Jason Sien sms me again asking if i am free tml...then i purposely sms him very late saying that i dunno if i haf time anot...then until now didnt reply but i hope he dun reply...then i sms Shu Wen and Shi Hua if they are going out tml...but i doubt so...then was kinda angry and depressed cos my old sickness occur and got a little gastric pain and heart was kinda pain...and i jus wanna say sumthings but who should i find?



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11:22 PM

Monday, August 29, 2005
todae was a bad or good day? i also dunno...i had did very badly for all the tests this term...must pull up my socks le...my POA and 2 maths didnt meet my expectation or neither did it maintain at my preious standard...i dunno wad to do...i dunno how to tell my parents...they would be totally disappointed...i found out sumthing again...i really cant control my anger...or am i too emotional? nobody noes some probs esp one that i had been thinking through for almost a month...after sch, went for MEP...sian lei...i didnt study for the test and i'm gonna flunk this test...if i can jus pass for this test, i would be gratified le...it is out of 50 while the only test we had last time was out of 100...i mixed up the Japanese instruments and forgotten how to spell...then on the way home i on my hp...that Jason Sien sms me again...argg...todae morning jus sms me asking i free anot then jus now also ask the same qn then ytd nite even worse...sms me asking if i'm free to call him and discuss abt his wedding things...i kept on wondering why isnt Valerie discussing wif him and why isit me discussing wif him? they are the ones getting married lei...i wonder should i meet up wif him anot?



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11:17 PM

Sunday, August 28, 2005
ytd went to sch for rehersal and i was actually in a jubilant mood but after the rehersal, i was feeling frustrated and discouraged...i was being picked on by my instructor...i dunno why he always pick on me or isit cos i'm too lousy...haha...i'm so lousy...and cos of some reasons that led me to be like this...and i am now more scared of JO cos the day b4 i dreamt until him again...die man i almost this whole week dreamt until him and ytd kept on seeing him...then if we are not wrong, his wife fetched him home ytd on a Hyundai Tuscani...after that, some of us went to eat our lunch at tbp's food court...then went home...then i practice a while on the organ and went for organ lesson...Jun Yan played Voyager and Let It Be for a time each...i played ET again for 2 times...Benjamin played Final Fantasy for 2 times...the joker played Whiter Shade for once on the teacher's organ and the teacher lead us playing Lawrence of Arabia...

todae morning was kind of sickening and furious...i slept at 1plus and woke up at 7plus...actually needed to help my parents wan but was tired and still haf some hw to be done...and actually i needed to be there at 6:30am cos there are many orders todae...jus now woke up jus got beaten by my younger brother...sick lor...very pain lei...still hit on my head...then at most later get scolding from parents lor...



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7:59 AM

Friday, August 26, 2005
ytd had swimming for PE...i was quite discourage cos i was the least brave cos i was the last to try swimming to the deep pool and i still needed a board to help me...maybe cos i still cant accept the fact of almost drown for 3 times...1st time was when i learn swimming when i was in Kindergarden but after that, i nv swim until pri 4...after that, i was almost drown again when my fave cousin, Calvin and Cheryl, his sis brought my younger cousin, Dorisa and i to the SRC(singapore recreation club) swimming pool to swim...it was a indoor pool...after that i only swim when we are forced to in Outram...the last time i almost drown was in June this year at Sentosa the sea there...then after sch ytd, got rehersal for speech day...then i went to look for David Tan regrading the MEP stuff...then i went to Clementi Yamaha to book a studio for practicing after rehersal...was sort of upset cos i'm lucky to get a studio with Stagea but it's only ELS-01, EL-90, EL-100, 200, 500, 700, 87 but i only can get to use EL-87 cos the others dunno why cant play...i on the power liao but cant play lei...the switches also on liao...and it's an hour for $15.75 cos peak hours...then was quite pissed off cos i can hardly play wif the diskettes for some songs as my organ dun haf the function...and not even the tempo...reached home at nearly 9pm...

todae was quite jubilant cos others are quite jovial den dun spoil their mood...but i was furious cos got piles of mountains of work to be done and todae's physics test surely fail wan lor...btw todae is the 8th month of the Tsunami disaster so i played Tsunami jus now and practice some other songs...oh my gosh...todae is the 26th and my music elective's EOF practical is 1 month away...die...monday still got MEP test...



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7:54 PM

Tuesday, August 23, 2005
todae i feel quite despondent early in the morning...then got back chinese paper and a maths...was even discouraged...though i pass my a math, it was TOO far from my expection...i broke down and cried...then after a while feel much better as i did some reflections when i was crying...then we had the opporunity that we might be going to go to Hong Kong 2 years or lesser from now...we will also get to preform wif the Hong Kong preformers...then ppl seem to be quite jubilant but i'm not that jovial...but anyway, i hope that that might not happen...i gtg and do my hw now...



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5:51 PM

Sunday, August 21, 2005
todae woke up late then must meet Mei Yee they all do the project...b4 i went out i forgot that i had to help my mum do some household chores so i'm late...VERY SORRY...the we had some discussions at TBP's mac then we went to popular and see if the materials are available...but we went to Ngee Ann City's Kinokuniya to check out if the materials are better...though there isnt many materials that meet our citeria, we had some inspirations from there and we went to Chinatown to buy the materials...we spent a total of $5 plus...then Mei Yee, Shu Wen and i went to Tiong and met Mei Fang...after that, we went to Ikea and ate the hotdog bread...then went to Queensway shopping centre and walk...after that, we went home...i skip breakfast and lunch for todae and i ate the hotdog bread that we had in Ikea, half of the bar of bitter chocolate, a pack of chips and a aloe vera jelly for dinner...todae i found out something...i was very selfish...someone dropped the thing in a shop but i didnt help him and yet i walked pass him...i felt very guilty...and i found out something that had make me disappointed and i have been thinking over the same thing for 2 weeks...



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10:19 PM

Saturday, August 20, 2005
todae woke up at 7am...but was quite tired so slept again...7:30am woke up then prepare to go for CO...go to sch by my own cos Shi Hua was late but i haf already gone b4 she sms me cos i thought she go to sch liao as she didnt reply me earlier...then when i was reaching sch, Yee May and Shi Hua told me that they are meeting to eat 1st then asked me if i wanna join them...haiz...then after CO i went home...then Shu Wen came my house...i pratice the organ while she uses the computer...then i needed to go for organ lesson so she went home...i was late for 5 mins...luckily the lesson haven started...

todae is my 1st time

Sunday, July 24, 2005
todae is my 1st time that i woke up at 11am...break my record...i nv slept later than that...then ate breakfast...had a slice of cake...yummy...then watch tv...then Ling and Shi Hua sms me say that they cant go out le...so didnt go out...was sort of disappointed but nvm...everytime wanna go out then they cant go out...and is that everytime i ask wan they cant go...but nvm i'm not angry...so dun be guilty...is jus that i'm hating myself...then after watching tv, did my journal...and i finished my homework...this is the 1st time i so fast finish homework...quite gratified...then practice organ...sick man...i now find that the jazz song is even difficult than Voyager...but there are more to come...i think that teacher is gonna give us a song in 2 weeks time...die liao...how am i gonna pass my grade 6...then jus now almost out of control...almost shout out at my parents and was feeling furious...cos of some things...then they decided not to but organ le...i waited for so long le but it jus does not come true...i doubt that they will give me a surprise on my birthday this year...not even a present...nvm...i'm quite contented yet discouraged...

then i dunno why they came back from work then scold me again...i jus cant stand it...then my mother still says if i make her angry another time, then i die lor...but i dun understand...wad haf i done wrong...the organ thing can 4get it cos of some probs that i can understand...but is that they always break my promise lor...then ytd my maths tutor say that if i must try to go for tuition wif my brother on Tues...then is that if i dun go he will be angry...but i feel like going...i got theory at 3:30pm...then go home must study A maths test...but if i go i can revise my A maths rite? however, i go there also no use wad...no matter how much i study will also fail wan and i go there can ask until how many qns...he always explaining to my brother...say until this, i cant stand it...he always say that i dun wanna ask qns...but he explaining to others then how i ask...i ask le i still dun understand...why am i so stupid...



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7:39 PM

Saturday, July 23, 2005
todae woke up quite late cos was feeling tired...dunno why...then ate 2 slices of bread for breakfast...do homework...then went for tuition...b4 that, i quarrelled wif my younger brother...who ask him wan to help him do homework but if dun do he beat me lor...i cried cos i said i dun wan than he beat me lor...so i help him do lor...always like that wan...then i slack in tuition lesson...i only done 3 qns or not even 3...for the whole lesson...wad am i doing...and teacher was also quite angry cos he has high expectations of me...he always compare me wif my elder brother...how sad...

then went for organ lesson...todae we learn a new song again...i'm dead man...i still cant play well for Voyager and now come the new song...A Whiter Shade of Pale...it's a jazz song...i think i heard b4 somewhere...then this song is quite difficult but i think Voyager is still the most difficult of all the songs i have played...then i found out that Jun Yan passed his grade 6 but i wonder why he is still learning grade 6 and not for grade 5, teacher's grade? i have regretted learning organ...but i learn anything also no use wna la...slack in everything i learn and do...i wanna pick up Guitar...i have been waiting for a long time to learn liao...but now i'm more concern abt the organ as i have not more than 20 hours for my parents to decide this prob...but dun wan also good...cos i'm lousy...then sch exams are coming soon...so sian...finishing homework...left wif journal...



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11:55 PM

Friday, July 22, 2005
todae i went to sch and was okie...i was rather dejected...however i tried to laugh...during eng lesson Yvonne told us something that made me laugh like siao...then Mr Ooi thought that it was someone else who made me laugh...haha...then after sch stayed back to do the speech for Mon...so sian...then after that went home...prepare things and then went for theory...todae's lesson was alrite...then after that went to Queensway...while waiting for bus, a foreigner came and asked me for directions...i was so jovial when she asked me cos i want to help others when i can...however, i'm not sure she got there anot...i hope so...then bought a pair of Nike shoes...at 1st look that time still alrite but buy back le regret...maybe cos of hurry bah...i choose things need a lot of time wan even buying chocolates...siao rite...act lor...i haf changed...i really changed a lot and is from bad to worse...



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11:50 PM

Tuesday, July 19, 2005
todae was more relaxing than ytd...however i was late for sch...sick...i think i'm changing bak to my usual self again...i wan to be a better person...i cried like siao ytd...then todae got cry abit...i cant control my feelings...then i was trying to change le but no one believe me...i'm not gonna be late 4eva...i was slacking the past few weeks but now i'm trying my best to do my work...and for wad i do, i must do till the very best...todae's lesson was quite boring...then after sch stayed bak a while to do my reading log as it was raining heavily and i cant go for my music lesson and it also haven start so i decided to accompany Shi Hua also...while we were doing our work outside class, Mr Ooi will sometimes do a check...then there was one time that Mdm Choy walked passed and asked us qns...then i thought she might have forgotten my prob but she didnt...haiz...she asked me sumthing then she went liao...phew!

then went for theory lesson...was late by 10mins but teacher extended the time cos she is free...then i need to "chiong" liao cos she is paying bak 2 more lessons to me and the time given to reach my target is getting closer...i doubt that i can finish my Grade 7 theory by end of year...haiz...see 1st bah...then went home did theory homework then practice organ...then almost shouted at my parents...and i was dejected cos of sumthing...and it was really unreasonable lor...i dunno why they are getting more and more unreasonble...sry to say that and you 2 are my parents lor...and the 2 of you, my brothers...you all can give me some freedom and respect me anot...and dun be so unreasonable or else you all dun force me to do sumthing which i dun wan it to happen...or i may change to an unreasonable person too if you all wan to...



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10:58 PM

Sunday, July 17, 2005
todae was slack...woke up and play computer...after that went to meet Ling, Shu Wen and Eliz...we went to Jurong Point...walk walk then Ling wans to eat...after that went to arcade but Shu Wen gotta go for her piano lesson...we played a while then walk walk...then saw many NCC cadets...i remembered that todae they are going to the SATI(i dunno whether spell correctly anot)...then somewhere near there...then we go window shopping until 7plus...then after that when going home that time saw Leslie they all...haiz...i realized sumthing...dun sae le...then when we still waiting for someone then they all go liao...then went home finished my work...



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11:00 PM

Saturday, July 16, 2005
todae woke up at 9+...eat breakfast...then do homework...do household chores...then practice organ...then thinking of sum things...then went for organ lesson...i saw notices of the guitar course starting next month...i wanna learn...but my parents wun allow wan lor...if they dun allow then i dun care le...i pay the fees myself lor...i missed so many opportunities le...i have regretted for wasting 2 years learning the keyboard and the teacher wasted half of my year for organ...then todae's lesson was alrite...of all the lessons, todae's is the best of all but not really best...todae i was asked to play "If I never knew you", the disney song at the teacher's organ...i slack man...i can play better last week...then we tried out "Voyager"...i so damn stupid...cant play...left hand was alrite but right hand had some probs when playing...only right hand got prob liao then how i play with both hands? huh?

we also played "ET", "Let it be" and the sort of french song and do hearing also...then Jun Yan played "Magnificent 7" and "Back to the future"...i prefer "Magnificent 7"...he good lor...the pro kia in class...unlike me...he actually taken grade 6 liao but i think he failed so he in this class bah...then i think i the youngest or maybe as the same age as one of them...Cheryl is now in poly/JC or university...then Jun Yan is in Sec 4...the joker's sister got her Grade 6 result...got all Bs and As...then teacher also showed the result of the other pupil of hers...got 2Bs and the rest all As...i wonder how they can get so good results...i think if i sit for the exam...the paper is all C or D...then i had decided to go celebrate wif my mum...we ate Swensen's...then after that had a tiff with my younger brother again...sick lor...everyday must quarrel with me wan lei...if not then...forget it...now i feeling very sick ar...jus now gave attitude to my father...haiz...i haf changed so much...so bad...but i still think i'm on the right side and they are the ones who caused me to be like that...i also dun like it...but they nv noe...i only correct their mistakes than they "bu shuang" le...then i jus now wanted to say sumthing and i say half of my sentence for 7 times b4 i could say wad i wanted to say...and then they didnt even reply me...then still say everytime i dun wanna say...nowadays i dun even talk to my closest SheepSheep abt my feelings...then jus now i almost uncontrol myself cos of sumthing again...



be true to urself
9:36 PM

Friday, July 15, 2005
i was actually feeling alright todae..but things pile up and make me feel confused..that led me to my dispirited world...during morning asembly, a person said abt sumthing then i felt despondent...then went back to class, Mr Ooi was in a bad mood...Ms Lim was talking to Mr Cheong then we all were sort of noisy then Mr Ooi shouted...then todae Ying Yan didnt come...i guessed is abt ytd's prob? Ying Yan cheer up man...we will always be supporting you! then Mr Ooi cos of all these and a guy also told me sumthing and i told myself that cos of others, i must be jovial...they are all feeling despondent so i should be jubilant...i wanna help others but i cant...then after sch went to Ngee Ann Poly for the course...b4 that, i was not feeling good...and went to there, i was laughing like siao...and i had not been laughing for so long...then got some misunderstandings...sry...i think i dun need to say out the name bah...i was the one who was at wrong...then went home when using the computer got scolded by my parents...cos of some misunderstandings again...i talked back to them...i so frustrated and depressed le still like that...then i feel that i'm not going for tml's dinner for my mum's birthday celebration...i dun care whether it is Swensen's or wad so eva...i'm not going...



be true to urself
7:20 PM

Thursday, July 14, 2005
todae i was late again so Shu Wen and i had t take cab again...sry...at 1st i was kinda elated...but slowly, i became discouraged...even more depressed as time goes by...during Chinese lesson, Mdm Tan broke into tears cos she said abt her parents who had passed away...hiax.. despondent...then we had our 2.4km run todae...i think i was placed 4th in class for girls...15.14 min...haix...Shu Wen was the fastest...pro wor...then CME lesson actually got test wan then teacher say we can open the book...during Chemistry, my mood came to the climax for todae...i was rude to Shu Wen and she was sort of angry bah...SORRY!!! then actually should be everyone arnd me who i was rude to...during Eng, Mr Ooi checked our reading log...he dunno say that i read abt Dark Matters? i think is sumthing like that...then my mind was blank...i think i was also rude to him...haix...

after sch Shi Hua they all got oral exam so i did my homework in class while waiting for her...then Mr Ooi asked me some qns...then i only shake or nod my head...then i think it was rude...sry...then when Shi Hua and i went to the music room, they all practice finish liao...haha...then we all went home...Shi Hua and her sis wait for her father to fetch them then i went home myself...i went to the National Library to return and borrow books...then saw Shu Xian and her stead(if i'm not wrong)...waved to her and went to take bus home...i didnt study A maths test as i noe that i will fail...i had been slacking...and not practicing my organ for almost a week le...tml going for the MYOB thing at Ngee Ann Poly...bored...



be true to urself
10:39 PM

Wednesday, July 13, 2005
todae was feeling quite strange...haix...feeling discouraged? or jovial? then todae was an unlucky day...Ms Saw so long time didnt call me do poa then todae so unfortunate got called and i always say index no. 1 very seldom call wan...then carriage inwards can write until carriage outwards...dunno wad am i doin todae...then maths lesson was okie...chinese lesson was okie too...but we needed to compose song lei...not really compose la is kind of changing lyrics...but dunno why almost cried...maybe cos of some reasons...Mr Ooi said abt the oral thing...haix...hopeless is the word to describe it...after sch went home eat lunch then went for tuition...the lesson was boring that i fell alsleep...then everytime tuition ask qns less then 10 sentences...then teacher says i so different from my brother...so sick wan lei...everytime compare between my brothers and i...last week was 2 and a half hours...this week is 2hours...so sian...

came home was very tired that i stare into the space...then 8:30pm then do homework...die liao le...i haven been practicing on my organ for 4 days le...i think gonna slack liao...last time i cant resist myself from playing it as i'm addicted to it but now i'm slacking like dunno wad...i'm gonna get laughter from the people again...and this reminded me of sumthing bad ytd...i will not forget it...FOREVER!!!



be true to urself
11:34 PM

Tuesday, July 12, 2005



be true to urself
1:06 AM

Sunday, July 10, 2005
todae woke up at 9plus...so tiring...then ate breakfast...tasteless wan...do homework...12plus drink a bowl of soup...then Shu Wen came my house...raining...she didnt bring umbrella...then we do homework then she play PS2 then i do homework...then parents came bak...keep on asking me qns...then i quite angry...ask me this and that...finish doing hw le went out to meet Eliz and Ling...we 4 went to Bugis...we walk walk and took neoprints...i look so ugly and sian...then we had a fun time decorating...then went to buy sweets then dunno why Shu Wen and Ling say that if i'm arnd, the shop selling sweets wun closed and etc...then say say say...then went to take a bus home...on the bus, we chatted and we asked each other to guess some songs...cos we were too bored...then went to change bus...Eliz took different bus from us...then dunno who started some joke...then talk talk talk...until we went home...reached home le eat sweets and play organ...the new song wad really difficult...then come online...that's all for my day...



be true to urself
10:57 PM

Saturday, July 09, 2005
todae woke up late at nearly 6:30am...then actually meet Ling they all at 6:45am then Ling and i was late...actually Ling can be earlier de but she say wait for me...lol...thanks...we ate mac and went sch...then went to Clementi to do CIP...our group spilt into 2 again but this time got 2 more sec 1 de...Shu Wen, Shi Hua and I again...then Mr Ooi say cant wan then Shi Hua says we very independent wan then he speechless liao...we went to the first few flats then got one got piles of newspapers...we were shocked and we were half dead le cos too heavy...then got one resident lent us a trolley cos she thought it was too heavy...then i phoned to Mr Ooi then he came over and look after...we were counted as one of the slowest...cos we joke and laugh when doing the collection...haha...enjoyed my time todae but was tired and my finger almost bleed cos of the newspapers...then got lots of chatting and blah blah blah...cant really explain all...then went bak to sch...waited for 3/7 and 3/8 to arrive...went Tiong then only Hui Xian eating...i kept on drinking water todae...dunno why so thristy...todae i had drank 500ml of plain water, 330ml of sprite, a cup of bubble tea and 750ml of vegetable+fruits de drink and now i'm drinking 1 litre of vitasoy...i only ate a burger for breakfast and skip lunch then dinner haf 3 breads maybe cos i ytd only eat breakfast bah...then todae learn a new song...Voyager...the chorus very smoothing...overall 95%...maybe it's another Tsunami song that i haf waited....however, it is more challenging than Tsunami...it is quite difficult as there are many changes in chords, change in speed and its quite fast, right hand quite complicated but maybe a practice a few times then will be easier...i wanna make it another Tsunami...but i think teacher is too fast these few days...give us a new song each week...then how i cope...i die le la...then she todae only gave back me a diskette cos i gave her 3 then her com spoil...



be true to urself
7:44 PM

Friday, July 08, 2005
wanna add to todae's blog...i haf embarrassed myself 3 times todae...one was i dropped my books when coming to sch then my poa file's content page also drop out...it was thorn...then only Shu Wen was around...then the 2 thing was ytd Yee May wore my shoes home then todae in the hall exchanged back then was like...so many ppl then still got teachers arnd...then the 3rd thing was that Shi Hua was asking me abt Sci then i kept on saying that cos it was salt in mandrian then Ms You was behind us then she thought wad...then all of us laugh lor...including Yvonne they all...cos they are taking sweets from me then very funny...then Mdm Tan asked us wad happen then i still laugh...



be true to urself
10:31 PM

todae, sch was boring but Shu Wen and i was really lucky todae...we were almost late...then we didnt do poa then didnt confiscate ezlink card...haha...then Yvonne was angry cos why my card wasnt confiscated but hers...then we were not called for oral...so lucky man...todae we stay back in sch until 3plus cos of poa...then i was sort of feeling furious and disappointed of sum things...haix....then went to theory but teacher didnt come todae...i waited for half an hour cos i went there too early todae then knew that she didnt come...then go home lor...i'm very scared now...tml got organ then dunno wad's gonna happen...i'm scared...but quite depressed of tml also...cos teacher is gonna give me the diskettes for the songs...but...haix...forget it...



be true to urself
8:11 PM

Thursday, July 07, 2005
todae was quite tired...woke up at 6:30am...then todae's lesson was also boring...we ran 4 rounds around sch for PE...then during CME lesson, almost the whole class fell asleep...then Chemistry...haix...then Mr Ooi tested some of them for oral...then they needed to stay back...then we got CO...not more then 20 ppl...so pathetic...then released at 5:30pm...then noticed that Yee May wore my shoes home...then i wore hers...lol...saw Ling they all then we go Tiong...actually dun feel like going cos still got some much homework to do but also dun wanna go home...got home at 8pm then got scolded...but forget it...wad made me angry was that my father kept on asking me to do my work but the prob is that they all keep on chatting and watching TV...then how i do? so noisy...asked them to keep quiet then later noisy again...i was fed up that i shouted at them...haix...i wonder wad's gonna happen tml...hope that tml will be a brighter day...cant be depressed or angry...lets hope bah...



be true to urself
11:59 PM

Tuesday, July 05, 2005
todae went to sch...was Ling's birthday...Happy Birthday!!! sch was quite boring...then eye a bit swollen...then in class Han Jun keep on asking me why i keep on staring in the air...then haix...dun say...then now only Shi Hua and Shu Wen noe my secret..cant tell okie? thanks...but actually nth la...but i feel quite hurt abt it...then during maths lesson cried a bit...haix...Ms Lim says that i got a lot of mistakes for my homework...but i cry not cos of this...shall not say bah...then during PC Mr Ooi showed us the depression thing...then dunno why Shu Wen and Han Jun look at me...i got depression meh? i so happy...haha...then Mr Ooi was sick...haix...more and more ppl getting sick...must invent some chemicals...lol...then after sch went to celebrate Ling's birthday...but hope she dun mind cos not really celebrate...then we late then Shi Hua was kinda angry...then i say that i must also invent more chemicals...but i dun think i can even go to ITE...so slack...we chatted then Shi Hua not angry liao...then Shu Wen said the truth to Shi Hua...at 1st i was kinda worried cos i tried to help her keep the secret then Shi Hua says she was not angry...i hope so bah...i noe lying is a big offence but i dun wan anything bad to happen...SORRY!!! NEXT TIME I WILL NOT LIE TO YOU ALL LE OKIE??? then i was playing the organ jus now...so disappointed wif myself...play like shit...then all the sad songs became like ppl dying de songs...then i now confused and frustrated wif sum things...



be true to urself
11:21 PM

Monday, July 04, 2005
todae is the 1st time that i break record...i woke up at 11am...eat breakfast cum lunch...then do journal...then Shu Wen came to my house...then she played computer while i'm rushing to finish my journal...then i influence her to cars...haha...then we kept on research for cars then forgotten the time then late for meeting Eliz they all...sry...got Eliz, Shi Hua, Emily, Ling, Shu Wen and me...at 1st, Shi Hua and i walked away wif them cos i was feeling frustrated...i cant control my temper...then i kept on saying of going to die when Shi Hua kept on asking me where am i going...then after cooling down myself, we meet wif them then we go Orchard...then on our way to the bus stop, we saw Leslie they all...haix...i almost cried...dunno why...then we waited for another bus...then go Cineleisure as Shu Wen wans to eat pastamania...but on the way, i cried cos of sumthing...only Shu Wen noes...haha...dun say out ok? thanks...then went to Heeren...was quite sian...then walk walk...eat ice cream then went home...then reach home le went for tuition...was quite disappointed yet jovial...was feeling irritated cos my eyes was quite pain...then did ss project...



be true to urself
11:40 PM

Sunday, July 03, 2005
todae woke up at 10...was feeling quite pain and sorrowful...then 12 plus eat lunch...practice organ again...the new song was rather slow...but i cant play well...then went to the car show...so sian wan...the cars not that good...still okie la...then nth wan...last year's at Suntec the motorshow 2004 was better...then went there that time something bad happen again...came back also happen again...then almost cried...haix...now still in pain...then todae wasnt a good day...i almost talked back to my dad...cos he was so "fan"...i dunno how la...he says gonna bring us to Hong Kong at end of year but i was rather disconsolate...and cos of some things...i think i shall end here...



be true to urself
9:31 PM

Saturday, July 02, 2005
todae woke up at 9plus...then use computer...then my elder brother play PS2...then i found out that i'm so stupid...my brothers lie to me...then i practice my organ...i found out that my elder brother lie to me another time...they good lor...make me so sad...still laugh at me...then eat a burger for lunch and went for tuition...then got a guy join...he is Jun Hao's friend...then he good lor...got his friend liao then change liao...i make a mistake wad then his friend laugh then he also laugh...i feel disappointed abt it...then actually i still got some qns abt sch work wan to asked wan then didnt asked cos they will laugh again...so sad le still adding sadness to it...then went to organ lesson...but b4 that went to buy diskettes for the organ...todae learn a new song titled "If i nv knew you"...it is another disney song again...then todae the 1 whole hour playing songs...luckily no impro or hearing...i was asked to play "Time to say goodbye" again...i was sort of confident cos i practiced it in the morning but the result turned out to be far from expected...i was playing faster than the tempo that i miss count...then my chords and melody also played wrongly...i was quite disappointed wif it...such a stupid person...then went to meet Shi Hua after that cos we going to watch Ngee Ann Poly Chinese Orchestra performing at Singapore Conference Hall...then went on smoothly then after that was abt 10pm...then went to eat dinner wif Siti cos Shi Hua's father fetching Xin Rui, her sister and her home...but during the concert, Shi Hua talked to me but i didnt ans...so sorry...then i came home at 11...something made me cried and i was even sadder...then todae was not a good day for me...how abt tml? i wonder how...



be true to urself
11:19 PM

Friday, July 01, 2005
todae went to sch feeling elated cos of some reasons...then the day in sch was so boring esp Chemistry...i dun understand much of wad the new teacher is talking...she is also called Ms Chan...she slang like veri wad then talk quite soft and teach so fast...i dun even noe wad chemical is wad...then falling sleepy...i think i todae eat a lot...recess eat wif Shi Hua, Shu Wen, Mei Fang and Sandra...but Sandra not eating...then afternoon drink a cup of water...then dinner eat 3 breads...then now mother so called force me to eat one more again...we went for CIP then quite suay or wad that Mr Ooi is in our group la...then Mei Yee and Han Jun go wif Mr Ooi then Shi Hua, Shu Wen and i split from them but got 1 time we 3 laugh quite loud then Mr Ooi heard it...then all of us go different blocks...we 3 finish the papers le then meet wif Mei Yee and took more...then we went back to our work that time saw Mr Ooi again...then we finish everything liao...then Shi Hua said that why dun i tell her earlier but i say i got...then i mood swing again...haix cos of sum reasons...but Shi Hua, i'm not angry wif you jus now...dun keep it to mind...then we met they all then walk back to the MRT station there...then went back to sch...after that we went to Tiong...haix...i naughty gal again...didnt go theory lesson todae cos i late liao then feeling moody and tired...chatted wif Shi Hua, Shu Wen, Mei Fang, Ling and Hui Xian...but Hui Xian and Ling didnt talk much...then after that go home...



be true to urself
7:16 PM

todae mood swing

Thursday, June 30, 2005
todae mood swing or should i say is almost everyday...todae take Shu Yun's father car to sch...actually dun feel like taking cos she hates me to the core but Shu Wen they all say nvm then forget it...then sumthing make me angry and agitated...Mr David Tan asked me which instrument i play then i told him organ then he go liao...then he asked Qi You then he says he play piano then Mr Tan asked him to prepare a song for solo performance...then i feel that maybe cos i'm stupid or he bias or he look down on ppl who plays organ...maybe he look down on ppl who play the organ cos organ is easier to play than piano...you see, so stupid rite...haha...then i dunno wad to say le...feel like chatting wif sumone but...forget it...maybe cos of this thing, i may give up the MEP bah...i dunno...then maybe Jaryl calling tml...but i dunno wad to say...



be true to urself
6:48 PM

Wednesday, June 29, 2005
haix...since sch reopen, i'm so happi...cos of too many things...i think i cant make it for 'O' levels...i dunno anything for studies...haha...todae also very ecstatic...then todae got photo taking for CO...then heard that we are gonna perform wif Ngee Ann primary for the Hong Kong ppl...then if we do well, we maybe can go Hong Kong next year...haha...but jus now ask my dad abt the trip to England then he angry liao...i wonder wat is in his mind...then i think i 'O' levels finish liao either go poly or immediately go overseas study...but i'm so stupid how to go overseas study...i dun think my dad and mum will pay for me lor...btw jus now Jaryl called...but quite sad...then i'm now so confused...then my parents haven even tell me how abt the organ thing or i think they didnt think of it...then my cousins win liao lor...all lie to me...then Calvin korkor and Cheryl jiejie also dun wanna talk to me...so disappointed...work liao like this lor...got girlfriend liao like this lor...live in a private house le like this lor...my dad didnt keep his promise too...still buy 4D...i hate it to the core...i feel like giving up the wish that he wanted me to fufill for him...but all of them are like that...i promise and try to fulfill wad they wan but they didnt keep it...i haf realised many things since sch reopen...esp that i'm getting more stupid...then still got some that make me angry...shall i say? then tml is the opening of DreamCars Asia motorshow 2005...i'm gonna go man...last year's was quite cool...but this year has more cars that like...but i tml no time, friday no time, sat also then must sun go lor...but...haix forget it...



be true to urself
10:56 PM

Saturday, June 25, 2005
todae woke up at 8plus...then skip breakfast...do poa and eng...then do finish poa at 12pm then wash living room de fan...then cook lunch...instant noodles again...then sweep floor and watch tv...after that do eng again then parents come bak...then we went to Suntec city...shop shop wif my aunt and her friends...then bought some stuffs but cost my dad $200 plus...but if i buy a digital camera then even worse...i had been eying on it for quite a long time...one of my dream was to become a photograher...but now i'm eying to be a chemist or an optometrist or psychologist or nephrologist...haix...so greedy rite...lol...sian...then tml would be a better day if it doesnt rain cos i'm gonna go sumwhere where there's sumthing i like it man...car freak...



be true to urself
9:31 PM

Friday, June 24, 2005
ytd go watch Initial D wif Shi Hua, Eliz, Ling and Shu Wen...the show okie la...quite funny...but too bad i dun quite like the cars...but ytd after the show, Shi Hua and I kept on looking out for sports cars on the road...we went to Bugis after the show at arnd 6plus...then after going Bugis street, we walk to Bugis junction then we saw 2 Hyundai Tuscani...haha...but seen quite often in Singapore...then at 1st i always see this car but i dunno wad brand it was...then ytd still dunno wad brand but i remembered that i saw that in a car magazine...but i haf no confidence in myself...haix...i'm so stupid...cant remember which model is which...do research and look magazine also useless wan...no money cant but also useless wan...cos i stupid wad...ppl look at it 1 glance will noe wad car it is but me must stare at it for so long then noe...so stupid...haha...then we went to walk walk in Bugis...then after that went to Esplanade...my sickening brother kept on asking where i was...then wad time i go home...dunno why eveytime must ans his ans and give him the specific place and time...then went to the seaside there then got sumone's birthday...then there got lightsticks written "HAPPY BITRHDAY!" wif her name and then still got cake...haix...say until birthday ar...i'm still confused over the chalet thing...then i stare at the sea...thinking of all my problems...almost cried out but didnt la...then Shi Hua wan to take photo wad then i dun wan cos i'm so damn ugly and no mood...actually i'm the one who talk the most ytd...i guess...but until that time, all of us became moody cos of me bah...haix...everytime cos of me...at 1st is Shi Hua sad sad wan, then is Eliz then is me...haix...actually i tried to be HAPPY all day to break my record but i cant...but nvm...todae dunno wad's gonna happen cos ytd reach home at abt nearly 10pm then my parents and elder brother angry but this is not my latest time to get home wad...then i ytd at home cried lor...but no one noes...haha...btw, Thank You Eliz and Shu Wen for the Famous Amos biscuits...thanks...and SORRY Ling that i shldnt ask you the qn ytd...and also SORRY everyone...



be true to urself
8:44 AM

Friday, June 17, 2005
wed jus came back from Malaysia...then ytd needed to go CO...so tired...dunno why...at Genting still okie la...saw Xin Rui twice...and saw my pri sch friend, Hui Hong once...then saw a gal who look alike like my godsis, Cassandra...then i thought that the person was her but dun think so cos her mother was there...then notice that she was not her...then at Genting there play arcade that time got some guys 'di siao' wan...got 1 guy quite good and quite nice looking sia...he helped me wif the game but when i play finish already, he was gone...haix...now my heart also very complicated...i dunno whether still have any feelings for *him* anot...what if i say that i nv like him? i dunno what happen to me...now my heart dun haf any feelings at all for anyone...i cant feel it...y? am i too heartless...but when we come back, i cried...cos of my parents...my dad said that he will buy lesser TOTO, 4D and shares...but that's all lies...after he said finish, he immediately called his cousin to help him buy the shares cos his cousin is working at the shares there...then still called his good friend to buy 4D for him...speechless...then my mum 'gin' at me when at the custom there cos she asked me to cut other ppl's q...but then why so kiasu and it's not good to cut other ppl's q...dunno why lei...i sumtimes also cut other ppl's q but that day think differently...haix...then CO also not many ppl go wad...then today got LCCI...so boring and got so many qns to do...die liao...then later still got to go for theory lesson...then surely got homework to do wan...tml still got organ lesson then still haven practice...liao le la...so many things to do...



be true to urself
2:44 PM

Monday, June 13, 2005
ytd use computer for a while then suddenly shut down...haix...really spoil liao...and i was still frustrated cos of some probs...haix...i cant contorl my anger...and btw, i'm truly sry everyone...i made everyone hate me and made you all sad...you see...i'm not a good gal...not obedient, not filial, stupid, useless, dont care abt other ppl's thoughts...not a human at all...cant even compare wif a pig...then todae went to Genting...sian...but at least still better than the past...but not as happy as wad i expected...my dad still got play bowling, arcade and archery wif us and walk walk lor...but my mother and my aunt and my dad's employee go gamble...sick...my mother says she headache then still got and gamble...then now, all alone using com and i was quite hapi yet sad jus now...the younger kids still playing the com wad then a guy help me to ask them whether is that com theirs...then they went away liao...btw...thanks...i'm hapi cos of this but sad cos of this also...i think i shld not elaborate more as i may be more sad...tml going KL bah...sian lei...btw, SORRY Hui Ying, Eliz, Shu Wen, Ling Ling, Shi Hua, and every single soul in the universe...i such a...forget it...or else later i need to run away from ppl again...haha...i think only Shi Hua and/or Shu Wen shld noe bah...but really SORRY!!!



be true to urself
10:38 PM

Saturday, June 11, 2005
so bored...ytd helped my mum from 8am to 7pm...then very tired...todae only helped from 8am to 12:30pm...then a few days b4 i got went and help and i was shocked that my dad increase my pay again...since abt pri 5 help till now...increase my pay for the 3rd time...but not much...then he keep on asking me wan to book chalet anot...but i dunno wad's the name...stupid man...i went b4 but forgot...quite ex wan...then i was pissed off todae...my aunt and my brothers...my aunt always snatch away my job...like my grandmother...then my brothers...always so sickening wan...always act infront of my parents and other ppl then at their back act bad...sumtimes really good but most of the times are bad...i dunno how i'm feeling now...my feelings are all mixed up...then thursday got CO wad...i 10am then reach there...i actually dun wan to go wan...then go lor...then reach there Siti got call my name la...but i was feeling quite angry so i didnt reply her...then i cant find my Er Hu in the store room wad then i got even frustrated...then took the music stand liao stand outside the music room dun wan to go in...cos I feel that I'm like transparent to them...then went in liao found my Er Hu cos the Sec 1 guy took it...then they learn new song liao...i dunno wad so i see and hear how they play then follow them play lor...since i'm the world's stupiest, idoiticest, ugliest, failurest and slackiest person...i shall grant vanish from this world...some ppl lie to me that i haf a bright future ahead..but it's not true...



be true to urself
1:42 PM

Tuesday, June 07, 2005
todae went to LCCI then after that went out wif Shu Wen and ling...actually i went to Shu wen's house 1st then we too bored den go out...went bowling...i slack or should i say that is i'm so stupid...only got 77...haix...slack...then went to eat dinner...then went walk a while then go home...dunno whether isit sad or hapi...then reach home...mum and dad haven come home...then watch tv and do poa...after that stare into space...dun wan to do poa le...no mood to do...



be true to urself
11:23 PM

few days didnt write blog le...2 days ago went oout wif Shu Wen and Eliz...then saw a yellow Lamborghini Murcielago...cool man...1st time in my life for almost 15 years that i saw one...i wan it...or a Ferrari Enzo...but too bad...no chance...then todae went LCCI again...so boring...but next Wed not going cos in Malaysia...i hope that the trip to Malaysia would be fun...cos my dad's friends are going wif their children but only 1 or 2 are girls bah...then others are guys...then abt my age...hope to make friends wif them or else i will be lonely at there again...haix...cos my aunt also going then she surely stick wif my mum wan lor...then actually todae going to meet Estelle wan but change date le...then ytd Qian Hui sms me whether wan to go for a talk on Sat but actually dunno they 2 much...but hope to meet up they 2 to noe more abt each other cos i wan to make more friends...but say until make friends ar...my grandmother's birthday coming then maybe Calvin korkor and his girlfriend, Wendy got go...and i hope that they go...btw...Calvin is also known as Wen Loong...my cousin which i had a crush on him last time but now not...Susanne jie, can meet you up and you must go to my birthday chalet ok? as well as, Cassandra meimei, Calvin korkor and Wendy jiejie ok?



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1:57 PM

todae mood swing or should i say is almost everyday

Thursday, June 30, 2005
todae mood swing or should i say is almost everyday...todae take Shu Yun's father car to sch...actually dun feel like taking cos she hates me to the core but Shu Wen they all say nvm then forget it...then sumthing make me angry and agitated...Mr David Tan asked me which instrument i play then i told him organ then he go liao...then he asked Qi You then he says he play piano then Mr Tan asked him to prepare a song for solo performance...then i feel that maybe cos i'm stupid or he bias or he look down on ppl who plays organ...maybe he look down on ppl who play the organ cos organ is easier to play than piano...you see, so stupid rite...haha...then i dunno wad to say le...feel like chatting wif sumone but...forget it...maybe cos of this thing, i may give up the MEP bah...i dunno...then maybe Jaryl calling tml...but i dunno wad to say...
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6:48 PM
Wednesday, June 29, 2005
haix...since sch reopen, i'm so happi...cos of too many things...i think i cant make it for 'O' levels...i dunno anything for studies...haha...todae also very ecstatic...then todae got photo taking for CO...then heard that we are gonna perform wif Ngee Ann primary for the Hong Kong ppl...then if we do well, we maybe can go Hong Kong next year...haha...but jus now ask my dad abt the trip to England then he angry liao...i wonder wat is in his mind...then i think i 'O' levels finish liao either go poly or immediately go overseas study...but i'm so stupid how to go overseas study...i dun think my dad and mum will pay for me lor...btw jus now Jaryl called...but quite sad...then i'm now so confused...then my parents haven even tell me how abt the organ thing or i think they didnt think of it...then my cousins win liao lor...all lie to me...then Calvin korkor and Cheryl jiejie also dun wanna talk to me...so disappointed...work liao like this lor...got girlfriend liao like this lor...live in a private house le like this lor...my dad didnt keep his promise too...still buy 4D...i hate it to the core...i feel like giving up the wish that he wanted me to fufill for him...but all of them are like that...i promise and try to fulfill wad they wan but they didnt keep it...i haf realised many things since sch reopen...esp that i'm getting more stupid...then still got some that make me angry...shall i say? then tml is the opening of DreamCars Asia motorshow 2005...i'm gonna go man...last year's was quite cool...but this year has more cars that like...but i tml no time, friday no time, sat also then must sun go lor...but...haix forget it...
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10:56 PM
Saturday, June 25, 2005
todae woke up at 8plus...then skip breakfast...do poa and eng...then do finish poa at 12pm then wash living room de fan...then cook lunch...instant noodles again...then sweep floor and watch tv...after that do eng again then parents come bak...then we went to Suntec city...shop shop wif my aunt and her friends...then bought some stuffs but cost my dad $200 plus...but if i buy a digital camera then even worse...i had been eying on it for quite a long time...one of my dream was to become a photograher...but now i'm eying to be a chemist or an optometrist or psychologist or nephrologist...haix...so greedy rite...lol...sian...then tml would be a better day if it doesnt rain cos i'm gonna go sumwhere where there's sumthing i like it man...car freak...
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9:31 PM
Friday, June 24, 2005
ytd go watch Initial D wif Shi Hua, Eliz, Ling and Shu Wen...the show okie la...quite funny...but too bad i dun quite like the cars...but ytd after the show, Shi Hua and I kept on looking out for sports cars on the road...we went to Bugis after the show at arnd 6plus...then after going Bugis street, we walk to Bugis junction then we saw 2 Hyundai Tuscani...haha...but seen quite often in Singapore...then at 1st i always see this car but i dunno wad brand it was...then ytd still dunno wad brand but i remembered that i saw that in a car magazine...but i haf no confidence in myself...haix...i'm so stupid...cant remember which model is which...do research and look magazine also useless wan...no money cant but also useless wan...cos i stupid wad...ppl look at it 1 glance will noe wad car it is but me must stare at it for so long then noe...so stupid...haha...then we went to walk walk in Bugis...then after that went to Esplanade...my sickening brother kept on asking where i was...then wad time i go home...dunno why eveytime must ans his ans and give him the specific place and time...then went to the seaside there then got sumone's birthday...then there got lightsticks written "HAPPY BITRHDAY!" wif her name and then still got cake...haix...say until birthday ar...i'm still confused over the chalet thing...then i stare at the sea...thinking of all my problems...almost cried out but didnt la...then Shi Hua wan to take photo wad then i dun wan cos i'm so damn ugly and no mood...actually i'm the one who talk the most ytd...i guess...but until that time, all of us became moody cos of me bah...haix...everytime cos of me...at 1st is Shi Hua sad sad wan, then is Eliz then is me...haix...actually i tried to be HAPPY all day to break my record but i cant...but nvm...todae dunno wad's gonna happen cos ytd reach home at abt nearly 10pm then my parents and elder brother angry but this is not my latest time to get home wad...then i ytd at home cried lor...but no one noes...haha...btw, Thank You Eliz and Shu Wen for the Famous Amos biscuits...thanks...and SORRY Ling that i shldnt ask you the qn ytd...and also SORRY everyone...
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8:44 AM
Friday, June 17, 2005
wed jus came back from Malaysia...then ytd needed to go CO...so tired...dunno why...at Genting still okie la...saw Xin Rui twice...and saw my pri sch friend, Hui Hong once...then saw a gal who look alike like my godsis, Cassandra...then i thought that the person was her but dun think so cos her mother was there...then notice that she was not her...then at Genting there play arcade that time got some guys 'di siao' wan...got 1 guy quite good and quite nice looking sia...he helped me wif the game but when i play finish already, he was gone...haix...now my heart also very complicated...i dunno whether still have any feelings for *him* anot...what if i say that i nv like him? i dunno what happen to me...now my heart dun haf any feelings at all for anyone...i cant feel it...y? am i too heartless...but when we come back, i cried...cos of my parents...my dad said that he will buy lesser TOTO, 4D and shares...but that's all lies...after he said finish, he immediately called his cousin to help him buy the shares cos his cousin is working at the shares there...then still called his good friend to buy 4D for him...speechless...then my mum 'gin' at me when at the custom there cos she asked me to cut other ppl's q...but then why so kiasu and it's not good to cut other ppl's q...dunno why lei...i sumtimes also cut other ppl's q but that day think differently...haix...then CO also not many ppl go wad...then today got LCCI...so boring and got so many qns to do...die liao...then later still got to go for theory lesson...then surely got homework to do wan...tml still got organ lesson then still haven practice...liao le la...so many things to do...
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2:44 PM
Monday, June 13, 2005
ytd use computer for a while then suddenly shut down...haix...really spoil liao...and i was still frustrated cos of some probs...haix...i cant contorl my anger...and btw, i'm truly sry everyone...i made everyone hate me and made you all sad...you see...i'm not a good gal...not obedient, not filial, stupid, useless, dont care abt other ppl's thoughts...not a human at all...cant even compare wif a pig...then todae went to Genting...sian...but at least still better than the past...but not as happy as wad i expected...my dad still got play bowling, arcade and archery wif us and walk walk lor...but my mother and my aunt and my dad's employee go gamble...sick...my mother says she headache then still got and gamble...then now, all alone using com and i was quite hapi yet sad jus now...the younger kids still playing the com wad then a guy help me to ask them whether is that com theirs...then they went away liao...btw...thanks...i'm hapi cos of this but sad cos of this also...i think i shld not elaborate more as i may be more sad...tml going KL bah...sian lei...btw, SORRY Hui Ying, Eliz, Shu Wen, Ling Ling, Shi Hua, and every single soul in the universe...i such a...forget it...or else later i need to run away from ppl again...haha...i think only Shi Hua and/or Shu Wen shld noe bah...but really SORRY!!!
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10:38 PM
Saturday, June 11, 2005
so bored...ytd helped my mum from 8am to 7pm...then very tired...todae only helped from 8am to 12:30pm...then a few days b4 i got went and help and i was shocked that my dad increase my pay again...since abt pri 5 help till now...increase my pay for the 3rd time...but not much...then he keep on asking me wan to book chalet anot...but i dunno wad's the name...stupid man...i went b4 but forgot...quite ex wan...then i was pissed off todae...my aunt and my brothers...my aunt always snatch away my job...like my grandmother...then my brothers...always so sickening wan...always act infront of my parents and other ppl then at their back act bad...sumtimes really good but most of the times are bad...i dunno how i'm feeling now...my feelings are all mixed up...then thursday got CO wad...i 10am then reach there...i actually dun wan to go wan...then go lor...then reach there Siti got call my name la...but i was feeling quite angry so i didnt reply her...then i cant find my Er Hu in the store room wad then i got even frustrated...then took the music stand liao stand outside the music room dun wan to go in...cos I feel that I'm like transparent to them...then went in liao found my Er Hu cos the Sec 1 guy took it...then they learn new song liao...i dunno wad so i see and hear how they play then follow them play lor...since i'm the world's stupiest, idoiticest, ugliest, failurest and slackiest person...i shall grant vanish from this world...some ppl lie to me that i haf a bright future ahead..but it's not true...
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1:42 PM
Tuesday, June 07, 2005
todae went to LCCI then after that went out wif Shu Wen and ling...actually i went to Shu wen's house 1st then we too bored den go out...went bowling...i slack or should i say that is i'm so stupid...only got 77...haix...slack...then went to eat dinner...then went walk a while then go home...dunno whether isit sad or hapi...then reach home...mum and dad haven come home...then watch tv and do poa...after that stare into space...dun wan to do poa le...no mood to do...
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11:23 PM
few days didnt write blog le...2 days ago went oout wif Shu Wen and Eliz...then saw a yellow Lamborghini Murcielago...cool man...1st time in my life for almost 15 years that i saw one...i wan it...or a Ferrari Enzo...but too bad...no chance...then todae went LCCI again...so boring...but next Wed not going cos in Malaysia...i hope that the trip to Malaysia would be fun...cos my dad's friends are going wif their children but only 1 or 2 are girls bah...then others are guys...then abt my age...hope to make friends wif them or else i will be lonely at there again...haix...cos my aunt also going then she surely stick wif my mum wan lor...then actually todae going to meet Estelle wan but change date le...then ytd Qian Hui sms me whether wan to go for a talk on Sat but actually dunno they 2 much...but hope to meet up they 2 to noe more abt each other cos i wan to make more friends...but say until make friends ar...my grandmother's birthday coming then maybe Calvin korkor and his girlfriend, Wendy got go...and i hope that they go...btw...Calvin is also known as Wen Loong...my cousin which i had a crush on him last time but now not...Susanne jie, can meet you up and you must go to my birthday chalet ok? as well as, Cassandra meimei, Calvin korkor and Wendy jiejie ok?
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1:57 PM
Saturday, June 04, 2005
todae stay at home from morning till i go for organ lesson...arnd 1 plus, Shu Wen came...she eat aloe vera again...haha...then i doing theory hw but dunno how to do liao then dun do...or else if i continue, i will get insane and lose temper...then Shu Wen played PS2 then i play computer...but we take turns to play...then i chatted wif a gal called Estelle...12 years old...then she asked me whether i can be her godsister and she asked me can meet her anot then i say okie...she called me then at 1st i think she was like not that friendly but when she called, i think that she is quite friendly...we exchange phone nos...then i wonder wad's gonna happen when i meet her wif Shu Wen they all...but i really hope that i can make more new friends...then arnd 4plus went for organ and i knew that i was going to be late then took a cab but "lonbang" Shu Wen cos she going to library...then todae everyone played a song on the organ...i played the French song but in Jap style...but was quite hapi yet sad cos teacher asked me to practise more...haix...then on the way home, i took a MRT then while waiting, a gal abt my age look at me then laugh, then she told her parents and sister then they also laugh...then i took out my mirror see nth wrong wad...then actually i wanted to talk back wan then forget it...however, i'm still even thinking of the incident that happen in the lift...how can i forget this...then went home then reliased that i forget to buy Ah Seng present as he's gonna leave tml...sobx...then went to Orchard on my own...went to Heeren...nth nice...then while on the way to PS, saw Stefanie and Lilian...quite hapi cos at least still got 2 ppl smile to me...actually didnt notice wan is Stefanie noticed wan...then ytd also saw them in

todae went for LCCI

Monday, May 30, 2005
todae went for LCCI in the morning...then was quite boring...and had to finish POA holiday hw cos this Fri must hand up one set...then jus now do the qns given then dunno how to do...failure...haha...dunno how to do...i'm so lousy...jus now got a teacher called up my home and asked my parents to go to sch on this Fri as a counsellor and the principlay wan to meet them...then the 2 of them asked me why did this happen...i dunno how to tell them...and not even one ans from their mouth is correct...so disappointed...they dun understand me and now i hate my father more...keep on asking me craps...then jus now i told him not to say craps on Fri then he speechless liao...i hope he better not say anything as wad he promised...if not i will stand up and bang at the table on Fri...how i wish i can dun go for any counselling...i'm perfectly fine...i can laugh like mad...y go for counselling for wad...there are more ppl who needs counselling...then jus now cry...cant play my pieces well...disappointed...i slack in everything...
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10:44 PM
Sunday, May 29, 2005
todae woke up at 10plus...den Shu Wen came to my house arnd 1plus...she brought instant noddles from her house and gave me...thanks...den i cook and she play PS2...tricky time again...we tried a lot of times for the tricks but cant lei...then todae sort of lucky cos we needed to pluck the wires to the tv then i plucked wrongly then no sound...but after trying, can liao...lol...then i unlock some tricks and Shu Wen not "shuang" liao cos she tried so many times cant then i one time can liao...bhb...then we go to national library to return books...i owe one of the books 3 weeks after date due...costs me almost $3...then we go IKEA then go Plaza Sing...very frustrated when we went to Plaza Sing...i accidentally hit a gal...abt my same age...then she told her 2 other friends...then they started saying abt Armani Exchange is a branded stuff and think that it is bought from "pasa malam"...then that time we were in a lift wad then i look arnd only i'm wearing Armani Exchange de shirt...then i was damn flare up...i only accidentally hit her wad...then she also didnt look her way...then i actually wanted to talk bak wan lor...then forget it...but it hurts my heart lor...how can they say like this...but nv did i noe...after we went to Yamaha, we went to the arcade and we saw them again but i think that they didnt saw us bah...then we walk walk then went to take a bus bak home...reach home...sick man...my dad was so irritating...get more hatred abt him...keep on asking Shu Wen stuffs in the afternoon and when i reach home, keep on asking me things...then when i play games also disturb me...always like this wan...when i do hw also disturb me...like my younger brother...so kpo and irritating...i also wan to haf some privacy and freedom...and always act smart...tell him the things liao then he still dun get it after millions of times...and still wan face cos he in the afternoon says that he's jus jk when he said abt the $500 thing and abt the stress all these...

went for the music

ytd went for the music elective program at ACSi then i made 3 new friends...one is called Kelly, the other is Li Choo and one is Meng Yi...Kelly and Li Choo are from SCGS and they are friendly...they always say "Hello!" when they see me then also wave to me...then i knew Meng Yi when we were having a short break...actually all of them are quite friendly and when i reach the sch, a guy will always say "Hello!" to me then i say "Hi!" back to him...but i forgotten his name...liao...however, i was depressed when i dunno how to do the harmonic test...i only got Grade 2-3 standard lei...that one Grade 5 lor...then see 1st la...if i can get at least 8 marks then okie la but still fail...if i get 0, then can say goodbye to this subject liao...and the NIE teacher is very much like the NIE teacher, Mr Lee...he is also another CC but better than Mr Lee a bit only la...his attitude also the same as Mr Lee...hopeless...when he took over the lesson since last week, i will fall alsleep in his class...then todae Mr Lee gave back our A maths test then i was dejected by it...i did not do well for it...and cos of some carelessness...disappointed with myself...wei lu ar wei lu...another hopeless person...
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5:19 PM
Saturday, March 26, 2005
todae went for CO in the morning then very xian...everytime learn the "star sky" in chinese...then bo bian SYF coming...then Hui Ying and I are chosen to be incharge of the music pieces, music stands and the spare parts starting after the SYF...then I went home then go for A tuition...got a guy also same class for E maths come and join the A maths tuition...then miracle for me todae...i didnt fall alsleep in my A maths tuition...hahaha...However,what made me triste was that Leslie didnt reply me and i was called to play on the teacher's Electone then i noe i die liao cos that piece was one of my lousiest wan...then i was being laughed at when i did badly by that idotic guy...and i didnt perform well todae...i did quite badly in all the other pieces except Tsunami dunno why...i cant catch up the speed for the Love Affair that i was being laughed at...though i dunno how old he is, i heard him said that he is going to Japan after his 'O' levels then ic he is in Sec 4 or 5 this year bah...wa lao...i think the others also older than me lor...still laugh at me...maybe that was my retribution...i think my close friends are gonna be sick of me saying over and over that wad happen to me are all my retribution...then i'm mad abt Electone liao..ytd still dreaming in the word of Electone...i dreamt that i wanna buy a model of the Electone that i like am in love wif it...though it is not as good as some other that costs more, it looks cool and has even better functions that wad i have...however, it is quite ex...then i went to Tiong to meet Siti, Shi Hua, Yee May, and a junior from CO...then we went to the arcade play, then i met a gal, she was strange...she asked me am i from Outram Sec and which level i'm in...then she was quite familiar too...then we go eat...then go walk walk then go home...
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9:51 PM
Thursday, March 24, 2005
ytd, he didnt went to sch then was like was he sick? then todae i think he also didnt go cos i didnt see him...then tml maybe going out bah...Shu Wen says wan to come my house...then todae quite sad...almost fed up...Shi Hua, Hui Ying and i were eating then i was telling them that i'm stressed after Shi Hua told me that she heard Shu Wen's recording on her piano then was like very expert...then i didnt talk to Shi Hua and Hui Ying for a while cos they like didnt wan to hear wad i wan to talk...you see, Shu Wen so pro...stress...Sat and Mon gonna be a stress day again cos the others are so pro unlike me...in the 'O' level music wan, almost all of them are pianist and one bassonist, one violinist, and only me playing the electone...then they all got at least grade 5 or 6 standard lor...then in Yamaha, the others can play the songs better than i do...my academics are lack also...so lousy...today going home that time, a person wanted me to do a favour for her then when i wanted to help her, then she says she asked others to help her...then i was like wad had i done wrongly? i wanted to help ppl and make them happy but they rejected me cos they think i'm a slacker...i cant do well in anything...melancholy...
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7:05 PM
Tuesday, March 22, 2005
todae during reading i started to fall alsleep liao...the night b4 ytd 3am then sleep then ytd 11 sumthing then sleep...then when we are in maths lesson, i almost fell alsleep but the Mr Lee always noticing all of us then how to sleep...then after recess got 3 periods of Eng then i really fell alsleep...i cant take it then still do comprehension some more...then after sch got eng remedial then Regan sit behind me wad then he says "Long time no see" in Chinese...then he still says "Why ppl call you predator?" also in Chinese then he says "Ok Ok dun make fun of it"...then he borrow stapler from me wad then he wan 2 return that time he keep on dun wad to let me take...then i wish that Eliz was here but Eliz was siting quite far away...then he still keep on saying "Mrs Cheong"...then when we were doing the last qn, i said the word 'gradually' cos Mr Teo wan the other word for slowly wad then Regan says "Wo! Leslie is an Eng pro and you are also an Eng pro" but too bad i arent...then why am i called to go for remedial...Mr Teo said well done wad then got a gal from 3/8 says "chey"...but 4get it...i wan 2 study hard now...Mr Teo praise me for speaking up in class and says must learn to be more spoken in class...then i'm very scared now cos last time Ms Lim, praise me to keep up the good effort, i fail the maths like siao...then this time am i gonna fail my Eng like siao too?
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5:43 PM
Monday, March 21, 2005
todae in sch during Chinese lesson, cos Mdm Tan didnt come, then the chairman asked us to write "Si Han" abt your friend who is addicted to his CCA and he neglected his studies...then the friend's name you are writing to is called "Chen Wen Jie" then Shu Wen, Boon Hwee, and the other ppl says "Ay, Wen Jie lei..." then i shy away...then after sch, i found out that there are many ppl around me are good to me that i didnt know...i saw Kendrick Soong then he says "Ay Wei Lu lei...Bye Bye!" then Qi You asked me qns then cos i go to the same sch wif him for the 'O' level music wad then we go together lor...then we reach there then got a guy from Kent Ridge says "Hello!" to me then i also say "Hi" to him...then got relief teacher for the next 5 weeks...the teacher's lesson is boring man...then when listening to the 2nd piece of music by Beethoven, i fell alsleep...but wad was great is that there is early dismissal at 4pm then very sick wan is that the test has been postpone again and postponed for 3-4 times liao...but if the test nv postpone and Ms Ng is not busy, then i will not see him liao...this continues below...then i thought of going to Tiong to buy something for the RIFA project...but little did i noe, Leslie they all were there...when i went into the popular, i only saw Yvonne and Jacqueline...then i saw Leslie, Marpig, Regan and Jun Hong...i was shocked man...then Hui Ying came to my house...while we were waiting for the bus, the 4 of them went out of Tiong de entrance that is opp the bus stop then Marpig they all make fun of Leslie...then they came across then Leslie, Regan and Jun Hong went to 7 eleven to buy thing then Marpig went home...then jus now E maths tuition i almost knockdown...haha....
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11:20 PM
ytd, Shi Hua and Ling came to my house...Ling used the computer to do the ask n learn then shi Hua and I were playing PS2...when Ling is done, she played the PS2 then Shi Hua and I do our project...we did for abt 3 hours then we tried to print...but when printed out, the pic is blur then my elder brother suggested us to change...then he use the computer...but nv did I know, when I went to use, he had closed the powerpoint then I was really angry...he didnt even save...I cant find the file...then I had to redo all over again...do like siao...very difficult to fnd the pics that we wanted...I todae later still got 3 test lei...Social Studies, A maths and the music wan...i think i'm gonna fall alsleep...after sch must go for the music wan then go home then 8plus still got E maths tuition...if i fall alsleep and caught, I'm gonna make my brother die...
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1:09 AM
Sunday, March 20, 2005
ytd Shi Hua, Shu Wen and Ling Ling came to my house...i reach home at abt 8:15am then i on the computer online a while then go and bath...after that i went to play my organ for abt 1 and a half hour...xian diao liao...then i nth to do watch TV also very xian...i feel like taking a nap but the weather damn hot then lazy to on air-con and i dun wan my elder brother to noe that i didnt sleep enough ytd or else he will tell my mum abt it...then at at nearly 2pm, Ling Ling came 1st then i thought Shu Wen says she was coming at abt 12 sumthing then i sms her she didnt reply...then we waited...then Ling went to play computer and me PS2...then Shi Hua came at abt 3plus then i ring up to Shu Wen then she says she was sleeping...after a while, she came then we played...Shi Hua, Shu Wen and me were playing and doing project at the same time...haha...but we played more then we do...then while we were playing the PS2 and doing project, Ling was doing her maths online assignment...we played until 8pm then they went home...i was kinda sleepy but this i enjoyed this holiday de Fri & Sat but maybe not on Fri
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10:22 AM
Saturday, March 19, 2005
ytd we went for 2/6 2004 class outing...some of us watched the movie named "Son Of The Mask" b4 going for the BBQ at Victoria's house...but too bad, *he* didnt watch...after that, we went to Victoria's house...most of the girls didnt go...we all only had bee hoon, chicken wings, sausages and satays to eat...after eating, we went to her house's downstairs de so called garden and played using basketball, netball and some boys played soccer...some even played the scooter and bicycle...we were not tired of shooting the balls but tired of picking them up as we always accidentally threw it into the drain that is quite deep...we all went back to have a drink and chatted...but sad sia cos Leslie lor...he took photo of Mei Yee and he still says that he wan her front view...haix...then Victoria's mother does not allow the boys to stay overnight then they had to go but where to go, 12 midnight liao...todae morning, they had to go to Habourfront to sit and wait but they played and buy food and drinks in Cheers...they said that they were nearly caught by the police cos if a group of people are found to be outside at such a late hour, it will be considered as illegal gathering...poor thing...then they also quite caring cos they still asked us not to go out cos later get caught by police...then feel quite happy...then we gals cant go out as Vic's mother does not allow only after the guys have come back downstairs then we went down to chat wif them...after a while, we all went to Habourfront de Cheers to buy drinks and food...however, worse come to worse, a security guard suspect us of sumthing and he called the police if i'm not wrong...then there was a cleaner, he kept on looking at us for dunno wad reason but i think that he wans to keep an eye and rem some of our faces bah...then we quickly went back to Vic's house but along the way, we stopped and see of the guy is still staring at us and we noticed a few of the people wearing blue uniform but not sure if they are the police anot...and we thought that it was the police, so we ran up fast and we gals hid for the time being at Vic's house while the guys hid outside Vic's house...we kept very quiet and we heard that a Taxi was coming up but there wasnt any passenger in it...we kept on thinking that it was someone who was looking out for us...then some of us slept and the others chatted...till this morning abt 6:30am, we all went back home...i wonder why isit that there is always a problem that occur whenever we haf a class outing...we met a group of gangsters last year and this year, we were almost caught by the police...
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today i went for CO

Saturday, February 26, 2005

today i went for CO, then go for A maths tuition, then after that went to organ lesson in Clementi de Yamaha...phew! luckily today is not my turn to play on the teacher's electone and is the other guy...all the rest of the class had played Tsunami liao except me...so i will be playing next week...and the guy who played jus now sabo me to play next week...but another guy said "only noe how to sabo ppl!" then forget it...play then play...i feel like playing another song but i like all of them...all jap songs..."Love Affair", "Tsunami", "Part of that world" then still got others and i like one song but dunno how to read cos in jap words...i am trying to learn jap too...i wanna go Europe, Japan and Australia...i feel that i have many good friends whether they are close or not close to me...or whether they are guy or gal...

be true to urself

9:08 PM

Saturday, February 19, 2005

Y? I jus dun understand...i am stupid, annoying, selfish, talkative, show off, ugly like mud and etc...i will nv 4get things that occur on me greatly when in secondary sch days esp...Sec 1, i still remembered that i dunno how to do such an easy Maths qn and the other students noe...i cried cos someone said that "such an easy qn also dunno how to do" and i went on crying...i proved to myself and others that i can but i haf lost the confidence...lost it cos of my emotions and things that happened to me greatly...everytime i laugh, it doesnt mean that i'm that happy but sad...ppl say things abt me i take it to heart cos i take things quite seriously esp wad ppl say...

i wan to say sry to all of my friends, teachers, and other ppl as an apology on wad i haf done wrongly...though i'm still despondent every now and then...i felt as if i'm under depreesion...you see, this is my time table:

Mon:
morning-sch
afternoon-'O' level music
night-homework and tuition

Tues:
morning-sch
afternoon-remedial
night-homework

Wed:
morning-sch
afternoon-CCA
night-homework

Thurs:
morning-sch
afternoon-CCA
night-homework and sumtimes tuition

Fri:
morning-sch
afternoon-music(theory)
night-homework

Sat:
morning-CCA
afternoon-tuition then after that got music lesson(practical & theory)
night-homework or leisure

Sun:
morning-homework or help my dad
afternoon-tuition or outside of house
night-homework or leisure

I feel like giving up my 'O' Level music cos quite stress that other student in the course have at least Grade 5 theory and practical but me ner...i only now then study Grade 2 theory then my practical is only Yamaha grade lor...Grade 7 now learning Grade 6 then...y i so stupid...then feel like under depression...everyday seems to be a sad day for me...not as cheerful as ever...

be true to urself

3:38 PM