these few days were very disappointed

Friday, April 28, 2006
these few days were very disappointed...i haven started on any revision and i'm gonna be dead especially for MEP paper 1...today's English is gonna flunk like siao...jus had MEP paper 3...which is practical...Lion Heart was alrite but my FFX song pulled my marks down...my rhythm was not on time...last year EOY was Tsunami then now FFX...both are my fave songs and it was easy to play but when i play with the background music, it sucks...haiz...today shi hua and ling came to my house...actually wanna study wan but end up playing...i'm now very scared...but there's no one to help me to overcome this fear...i dun wanna end up going to IMH...or having depression again...or should i say that i dun even haf depression in the 1st place...jus that ppl dunno...i'm so jubilant...
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7:33 PM
Monday, April 24, 2006
i haf thought through le...i think that he still like a gal very much...anyway, i jus wanna say that he's getting cool and wanna wish him all the best...no matter who he's with, he will haf my blessings...and most importantly, the person must be the gal he really loves and the gal must nv ever betray his feelings or else she will die under my hands...if he's happy, i will be happy...if he's sad, i will be sad..having to confess to him for 4 times and having to be rejected everytime, i wanna tell him that i really LOVE him...though i didnt did anything for him, he's still the best that nobody can replace...i will not lose heart so easily and will nv forget abt him...
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11:14 PM
Sunday, April 23, 2006
these few days dunno whether am i happy or sad...anyway, Leslie's nick has finally changed...he wrote "I'm going crazy over u....juz touch me baby" but i wonder who's that lucky gal...no matter who that is...whether my rival or wad...i dun care...i dun really treat the person he love as a rival cos i noe that i love him...on fri, saw Joanne when going to ACS(i) for MEP...we went there together...i felt so strange when a chio bu stand beside a "chio bu"...it's like very uncomfortable lor...she so tall and so chio then i sucks like dunno wad...the Mr Lee told us our timing for the Mid-Year Paper 3(practical)...so sian wan...last year end of year my timing was at 7pm...then this year mid-year at 5:30pm...always the last one...then i got Mr Lee's hp no...cos he scared i cant book the studio at Yamaha...on sat, went back to sch for poa...then Shu Wen and Ling came to my house and play...then i went for organ lesson...i was late...then they haf finished playing a song when i reached there...heard that Cheryl is leaving for Australia in July...that's great lor...go overseas for futher studies for her U cert...i wun get a chance...anyway, all the best to you Cheryl! Cheryl really rox lor...her studies, organ, guitar...all so pro...she's taking her organ exam in June...juz wanna wish her good luck...today went to help my dad...so sick and tired le...today got a sales person who is working for Subaru came and buy food was wearing the Subaru shirt...i told my mum that i really wan to work in a car company as a part time job but she objected...last time i told my dad, he scolded me and nag nag nag...now, my mum nag nag nag...i dunno why my parents dun understand wad i really wan...they dun like everything i do, say and wish for...
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9:58 PM
Friday, April 14, 2006
todae afternoon went to play bbal wif Tracy they all...playing a while then rain heavily...so we went to the void deck and waited...after waiting, the guys continued playing while Tracy they all went to eat and i went home...at 4 plus, went out to go and meet Samantha they all at City Hall...i was the earliest then Qi You and Rebecca came...so we 3 went walking arnd...then someone called my hp and the person should be Leslie they all...cos the no is Leslie's phone no...then i was stunned then didnt reply...then the other call was from Zhi Han's phone and the other from Jin Hao's phone...then Jin Hao said "wad party are you opening" then i said "2/6 party" then he said "why you only ask Leslie nv ask us"...then Rebecca di siao so she called Leslie's phone and then said that she was me...then when i ans the phone, that person on Leslie's phone said "dun call back liao"...then i was like...wad haf i done wrong...not i call wan wad...then met Samantha then she told me not to give up on him...then all of us went to the gluttons area at Esplanade there to eat...then we went for the Haydn's Trumpet Concerto...the trumpeter was awesome sia...wad i dun like was the ending...45 mins non-stop playing and i almost fell asleep...after the concert, Naomi, Samantha, Wei Zhi, Evan, Jeff and i went to eat ice-cream at Andersen's of Denmark Cafe at Marina Square...actually we wanted to eat at Haagen Dazs but must wait for 20mins...we ordered the Family Fondue...was fantastic...costs $34.50 but i pay extra of $4 plus...but nvm...i enjoyed it and it's my 1st time sharing food wif the 5 of them...reach home at abt 11pm...
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11:51 PM
Sunday, April 09, 2006
on fri, went for MEP...b4 that was my Chi oral exam...talked quite a lot but my reading was sucks...at MEP. we did on the differences between the 18th century and 20th century instruments...then we marked the melody writing for each other...i only got 19/25...a few had 25 and many had 20...but luckily it's not gonna be recorded in our report card...on sat, went for CO...then had organ lesson...my mood isnt very good after teacher had said that most prob only Cheryl can take the exam in June cos she had completed her A level and she is only left wif her arrangements...i am also left wif my arrangements but i haf no time to write as there are tonnes of hw to do...then wad makes me feel worse is Benjamin...i played Lion Heart, then i cant catch some notes then he said that i played wrongly...and is that everybody can hear wan lor...make me feel so embarassed and always sing praises to Cheryl...but nvm...Leslie is not like that can liao...today is my 1st time that i didnt go and pray my grandparents and uncle, aunties...haiz...cos got to do hw...hope that tml can be a better day...
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6:42 PM
Sunday, April 02, 2006
it was the 1st day of the "camp" on fri...it is the only day which i'm the happiest of all the 3 days...we had 3 trainers...Amin, Danny and Wayne and of course the music man, Chun Lay...Amin was the one who made us laugh the most and also cry the most...on the 1st day after the course, Shi Hua, Ling Ling, Mei Fang, Emily and i went to Tiong Bahru market wif Marcus they all...at 1st, i thought that Leslie didnt go and Jun Hong they all say that he sending his girlfriend home then i was very depressed...but in the end he came...my mood was like 360 degrees turn back...then while Shi Hua was waiting with me for bus, Marvin they all walked past then Marvin said abt Leslie la then he knocked on the advertisement the thing...we laugh our ass off...so funny...the 2nd day, Amin talked abt some things that made us sad then many ppl cried...i'm one of them...then when we went home, Jun Hong they all board the same bus as us but *he* was not there...on the 3rd day, we went to sch on Emily's father's van...Shi Hua told me that Leslie, Joel, Carmen and Lynette sat on the same cab then Joel purposely sit infront then...forget it...maybe i think too much...then we wrote letters to our peers and the trainers...Jun Hong wrote me a letter that was so funny and i wrote to 23 ppl...then on the closing ceremony, many ppl cried...me too...Leslie also cried...i dunno wad's the reason but i feel sad when i saw him cry and this was the 1st time i saw him cry...after leaving the sch, i asked Jun Hong to tell him not to cry liao but dunno how...haiz...and thinking back, i haf regretted that my parents didnt went to sch ytd...i dunno how now...i dare to confess to *him*...but dun dare to say SORRY and I LOVE YOU to my parents cos i dunno where to start from...such a disappointement...
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11:05 PM