todae went to help my parents

Saturday, May 27, 2006
todae went to help my parents...my dad today morning 12am then reach home from work then he 3 plus wake up go work liao...my parents these few days so late then come back...then went for organ lesson...learn new song...Can You Feel The Love Tonight...maybe if i can learn well within 2 to 3 weeks, then i will take this song for exam then dun wan the Whiter Shade or Winter Again...actually i wanna get the Dancing Queen and Lyphard Melodie from Benjamin and Cheryl respectively but i dunno why i dun haf the courage to ask...anyway, maybe gonna get the Pokemon theme song next week...haha...



be true to urself
7:17 PM

Wednesday, May 24, 2006
ytd and today arent good cos of some probs...ytd until today, my parents keep on quarrelling...i also dunno stand where better so better not care...then i feel that theres no colours in my life these few days...dunno why...todae went for theory lesson...was quite disappointed on the rate that i'm going but nvm...slow and steady wins the race...i always tell myself that i'm better than some ppl liao and i must be brave and stay happy no matter wad be it relationship, exam or wad...however, i might fall any time...then my parents and elder brother is either work until very late or no chance to sit down and chat wif each other...but everytime my family chat is abt sch work, parents or elder brother's work and nth else liao...they always either cut my line when i wan to say something or they dun pay attention to wad am i talking abt...jus now was quite sad and afraid...at 1st was that i was on my way to theory lesson then a guy looked at me in a very fierce manner then laugh like "siao" person...it really hurts me but i dun bother to care maybe cos he is mentally ill or he is under stress...then when i was going home, 3 guys were laughing their way when they saw me...it makes me boil yet depressed but nvm cos if all these could let them be joyous, then i would be their laughing stock bah...since i cant do anything to help in the society, i would let them laugh bah...at sch also like that wad...i'm not being called by my nicknames then is the form teacher who always call my name...maybe i owe it everyone the last life...



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11:05 PM

Friday, May 19, 2006
todae had the Career Guidance Day...ended at 1:30pm...then went to ACSi...taken back the results for the mid-year...i didnt expect my practical to be better than last year esp the 2nd piece and Mr Lee wrote my 1st piece as good coordination then 2nd piece as good contrast but some notes were missing and the intro was too soft...however, i dunno whether to be delighted or depressed cos he not as experienced as other teachers...my paper 1 flunk like siao...25 out of 100...can die...luckily my paper 2 and paper 3 help to pull up some marks but my paper 2 the melody and harmony section can be better wan...overall, i still fail...46 out of 100...sad sia...must really put in more effort for paper 2 and 3 in order to pull up the marks...



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6:10 PM

Tuesday, May 16, 2006
todae was a sad day for me...morning already in a bad mood...then Terrence Solaiman said my nick name then i throw my bag on the floor then i said sorry to him and Shi Hua cos it wasnt rite for me to throw my temper at them...however, i didnt say why i was like that...then had Eng oral for prelim and i failed terribly...die liao...i must buck up but i was too nervous and not even prepared jus now...then there's one time when Leslie pass by, i looked at him then when he saw me looking at him, his eyes look to somewhere else...i was depressed...then got to noe all the subjects except Music which i'm getting on Fri...failed quite a number of them...Eng, AM, Humans and surely fail Music wan...but nvm, must really pull up my socks after my Chi 'O' level paper...then after sch actually stayed back wif Eliz they all to wait for Ling and Hui Xian but i decided to go 1st...then saw Marvin, Leslie and dunno who else then Marvin called my name...then saw Jacqueline and Yvonne...so decided to walk down the hill wif the two gals...who noes that we saw them at the bus stop and Marvin called my name again...my parents knew all of my results liao but they didnt say anything lei...so strange...i rather they scold me and chase me out of the house...



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4:10 PM

Wednesday, May 10, 2006
this is my 2nd entry for the day...today is Wed so ot theory wad but i went there then no lesson...i didnt see the calendar...then i saw can take the exam certificate liao mah then i ask the reception then i made a mistake...so paiseh lor...i dunno wad am i doing...then i went to Sembawang music and i finally found the cd i wanted...actually i wanted the other one but that one no stock liao so buy this one...it's The Greatest Classical Moments...it's very affordable and resonable...then today i almost lose my life when crossing the road...i was quite depress then i was like...everybody was like see me "not suang" like that...perharps i think too much bah...then also no appetite to eat...tml is post exam day....fri is vesak day and is also my cousin's house warming day...i'm excited yet dun feel like going...i wanna watch Poseidon...my elder brother ytd watch liao cos he's working at GV then he said it's quite nice...but 1 hr 40 mins...



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8:15 PM

these few days haf finally past...mid-year gone...how i wish time could stop here cos i dun wanna noe the results...surely very bad...i dun even wish to think but i jus cant...then now very furious cos of my nose...if pass by Marvin they all then they would surely laugh at me wan but nvm, "xi guan" le...now dunno what to do...ytd jus cos of some things then cry...today almost cry cos of some things also...but i tried to control...i haf thought through le...but it would not be good...everything be it studies or wad now sucks like dunno what or should i say from the beginning till now is all sucks wan...haiz..wadever...



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5:22 PM

Friday, May 05, 2006
these few days arent good...exams were crap...gonna flunk all subjects...get scolded by my brothers and parents for nothing...today's music paper 1 was crap...we werent taught how to write the essay on Prokofiev then test on us..it's like History and SS essay but how to write...12 marks some more...die liao lor...i haf read through most of the things but i dunno why for every exam, my mind would be blank then when the exam finishes, the memory came back...it's so frustrating...or should i say i haf a very poor memory...then ytd Ling wanted to "kill" me cos i kept on saying i cant pass my music...but in 2 weeks time, the results will be out...jus now, Samantha told me to study hard...lol...my heart is now shattered and i haf totally lost my confidence...i really wan to lend a listening ear but nobody can listen to me...



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7:12 PM