today i went for CO

Saturday, February 26, 2005

today i went for CO, then go for A maths tuition, then after that went to organ lesson in Clementi de Yamaha...phew! luckily today is not my turn to play on the teacher's electone and is the other guy...all the rest of the class had played Tsunami liao except me...so i will be playing next week...and the guy who played jus now sabo me to play next week...but another guy said "only noe how to sabo ppl!" then forget it...play then play...i feel like playing another song but i like all of them...all jap songs..."Love Affair", "Tsunami", "Part of that world" then still got others and i like one song but dunno how to read cos in jap words...i am trying to learn jap too...i wanna go Europe, Japan and Australia...i feel that i have many good friends whether they are close or not close to me...or whether they are guy or gal...

be true to urself

9:08 PM

Saturday, February 19, 2005

Y? I jus dun understand...i am stupid, annoying, selfish, talkative, show off, ugly like mud and etc...i will nv 4get things that occur on me greatly when in secondary sch days esp...Sec 1, i still remembered that i dunno how to do such an easy Maths qn and the other students noe...i cried cos someone said that "such an easy qn also dunno how to do" and i went on crying...i proved to myself and others that i can but i haf lost the confidence...lost it cos of my emotions and things that happened to me greatly...everytime i laugh, it doesnt mean that i'm that happy but sad...ppl say things abt me i take it to heart cos i take things quite seriously esp wad ppl say...

i wan to say sry to all of my friends, teachers, and other ppl as an apology on wad i haf done wrongly...though i'm still despondent every now and then...i felt as if i'm under depreesion...you see, this is my time table:

Mon:
morning-sch
afternoon-'O' level music
night-homework and tuition

Tues:
morning-sch
afternoon-remedial
night-homework

Wed:
morning-sch
afternoon-CCA
night-homework

Thurs:
morning-sch
afternoon-CCA
night-homework and sumtimes tuition

Fri:
morning-sch
afternoon-music(theory)
night-homework

Sat:
morning-CCA
afternoon-tuition then after that got music lesson(practical & theory)
night-homework or leisure

Sun:
morning-homework or help my dad
afternoon-tuition or outside of house
night-homework or leisure

I feel like giving up my 'O' Level music cos quite stress that other student in the course have at least Grade 5 theory and practical but me ner...i only now then study Grade 2 theory then my practical is only Yamaha grade lor...Grade 7 now learning Grade 6 then...y i so stupid...then feel like under depression...everyday seems to be a sad day for me...not as cheerful as ever...

be true to urself

3:38 PM