todae mood swing or should i say is almost everyday

Thursday, June 30, 2005
todae mood swing or should i say is almost everyday...todae take Shu Yun's father car to sch...actually dun feel like taking cos she hates me to the core but Shu Wen they all say nvm then forget it...then sumthing make me angry and agitated...Mr David Tan asked me which instrument i play then i told him organ then he go liao...then he asked Qi You then he says he play piano then Mr Tan asked him to prepare a song for solo performance...then i feel that maybe cos i'm stupid or he bias or he look down on ppl who plays organ...maybe he look down on ppl who play the organ cos organ is easier to play than piano...you see, so stupid rite...haha...then i dunno wad to say le...feel like chatting wif sumone but...forget it...maybe cos of this thing, i may give up the MEP bah...i dunno...then maybe Jaryl calling tml...but i dunno wad to say...
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6:48 PM
Wednesday, June 29, 2005
haix...since sch reopen, i'm so happi...cos of too many things...i think i cant make it for 'O' levels...i dunno anything for studies...haha...todae also very ecstatic...then todae got photo taking for CO...then heard that we are gonna perform wif Ngee Ann primary for the Hong Kong ppl...then if we do well, we maybe can go Hong Kong next year...haha...but jus now ask my dad abt the trip to England then he angry liao...i wonder wat is in his mind...then i think i 'O' levels finish liao either go poly or immediately go overseas study...but i'm so stupid how to go overseas study...i dun think my dad and mum will pay for me lor...btw jus now Jaryl called...but quite sad...then i'm now so confused...then my parents haven even tell me how abt the organ thing or i think they didnt think of it...then my cousins win liao lor...all lie to me...then Calvin korkor and Cheryl jiejie also dun wanna talk to me...so disappointed...work liao like this lor...got girlfriend liao like this lor...live in a private house le like this lor...my dad didnt keep his promise too...still buy 4D...i hate it to the core...i feel like giving up the wish that he wanted me to fufill for him...but all of them are like that...i promise and try to fulfill wad they wan but they didnt keep it...i haf realised many things since sch reopen...esp that i'm getting more stupid...then still got some that make me angry...shall i say? then tml is the opening of DreamCars Asia motorshow 2005...i'm gonna go man...last year's was quite cool...but this year has more cars that like...but i tml no time, friday no time, sat also then must sun go lor...but...haix forget it...
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10:56 PM
Saturday, June 25, 2005
todae woke up at 8plus...then skip breakfast...do poa and eng...then do finish poa at 12pm then wash living room de fan...then cook lunch...instant noodles again...then sweep floor and watch tv...after that do eng again then parents come bak...then we went to Suntec city...shop shop wif my aunt and her friends...then bought some stuffs but cost my dad $200 plus...but if i buy a digital camera then even worse...i had been eying on it for quite a long time...one of my dream was to become a photograher...but now i'm eying to be a chemist or an optometrist or psychologist or nephrologist...haix...so greedy rite...lol...sian...then tml would be a better day if it doesnt rain cos i'm gonna go sumwhere where there's sumthing i like it man...car freak...
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9:31 PM
Friday, June 24, 2005
ytd go watch Initial D wif Shi Hua, Eliz, Ling and Shu Wen...the show okie la...quite funny...but too bad i dun quite like the cars...but ytd after the show, Shi Hua and I kept on looking out for sports cars on the road...we went to Bugis after the show at arnd 6plus...then after going Bugis street, we walk to Bugis junction then we saw 2 Hyundai Tuscani...haha...but seen quite often in Singapore...then at 1st i always see this car but i dunno wad brand it was...then ytd still dunno wad brand but i remembered that i saw that in a car magazine...but i haf no confidence in myself...haix...i'm so stupid...cant remember which model is which...do research and look magazine also useless wan...no money cant but also useless wan...cos i stupid wad...ppl look at it 1 glance will noe wad car it is but me must stare at it for so long then noe...so stupid...haha...then we went to walk walk in Bugis...then after that went to Esplanade...my sickening brother kept on asking where i was...then wad time i go home...dunno why eveytime must ans his ans and give him the specific place and time...then went to the seaside there then got sumone's birthday...then there got lightsticks written "HAPPY BITRHDAY!" wif her name and then still got cake...haix...say until birthday ar...i'm still confused over the chalet thing...then i stare at the sea...thinking of all my problems...almost cried out but didnt la...then Shi Hua wan to take photo wad then i dun wan cos i'm so damn ugly and no mood...actually i'm the one who talk the most ytd...i guess...but until that time, all of us became moody cos of me bah...haix...everytime cos of me...at 1st is Shi Hua sad sad wan, then is Eliz then is me...haix...actually i tried to be HAPPY all day to break my record but i cant...but nvm...todae dunno wad's gonna happen cos ytd reach home at abt nearly 10pm then my parents and elder brother angry but this is not my latest time to get home wad...then i ytd at home cried lor...but no one noes...haha...btw, Thank You Eliz and Shu Wen for the Famous Amos biscuits...thanks...and SORRY Ling that i shldnt ask you the qn ytd...and also SORRY everyone...
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8:44 AM
Friday, June 17, 2005
wed jus came back from Malaysia...then ytd needed to go CO...so tired...dunno why...at Genting still okie la...saw Xin Rui twice...and saw my pri sch friend, Hui Hong once...then saw a gal who look alike like my godsis, Cassandra...then i thought that the person was her but dun think so cos her mother was there...then notice that she was not her...then at Genting there play arcade that time got some guys 'di siao' wan...got 1 guy quite good and quite nice looking sia...he helped me wif the game but when i play finish already, he was gone...haix...now my heart also very complicated...i dunno whether still have any feelings for *him* anot...what if i say that i nv like him? i dunno what happen to me...now my heart dun haf any feelings at all for anyone...i cant feel it...y? am i too heartless...but when we come back, i cried...cos of my parents...my dad said that he will buy lesser TOTO, 4D and shares...but that's all lies...after he said finish, he immediately called his cousin to help him buy the shares cos his cousin is working at the shares there...then still called his good friend to buy 4D for him...speechless...then my mum 'gin' at me when at the custom there cos she asked me to cut other ppl's q...but then why so kiasu and it's not good to cut other ppl's q...dunno why lei...i sumtimes also cut other ppl's q but that day think differently...haix...then CO also not many ppl go wad...then today got LCCI...so boring and got so many qns to do...die liao...then later still got to go for theory lesson...then surely got homework to do wan...tml still got organ lesson then still haven practice...liao le la...so many things to do...
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2:44 PM
Monday, June 13, 2005
ytd use computer for a while then suddenly shut down...haix...really spoil liao...and i was still frustrated cos of some probs...haix...i cant contorl my anger...and btw, i'm truly sry everyone...i made everyone hate me and made you all sad...you see...i'm not a good gal...not obedient, not filial, stupid, useless, dont care abt other ppl's thoughts...not a human at all...cant even compare wif a pig...then todae went to Genting...sian...but at least still better than the past...but not as happy as wad i expected...my dad still got play bowling, arcade and archery wif us and walk walk lor...but my mother and my aunt and my dad's employee go gamble...sick...my mother says she headache then still got and gamble...then now, all alone using com and i was quite hapi yet sad jus now...the younger kids still playing the com wad then a guy help me to ask them whether is that com theirs...then they went away liao...btw...thanks...i'm hapi cos of this but sad cos of this also...i think i shld not elaborate more as i may be more sad...tml going KL bah...sian lei...btw, SORRY Hui Ying, Eliz, Shu Wen, Ling Ling, Shi Hua, and every single soul in the universe...i such a...forget it...or else later i need to run away from ppl again...haha...i think only Shi Hua and/or Shu Wen shld noe bah...but really SORRY!!!
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10:38 PM
Saturday, June 11, 2005
so bored...ytd helped my mum from 8am to 7pm...then very tired...todae only helped from 8am to 12:30pm...then a few days b4 i got went and help and i was shocked that my dad increase my pay again...since abt pri 5 help till now...increase my pay for the 3rd time...but not much...then he keep on asking me wan to book chalet anot...but i dunno wad's the name...stupid man...i went b4 but forgot...quite ex wan...then i was pissed off todae...my aunt and my brothers...my aunt always snatch away my job...like my grandmother...then my brothers...always so sickening wan...always act infront of my parents and other ppl then at their back act bad...sumtimes really good but most of the times are bad...i dunno how i'm feeling now...my feelings are all mixed up...then thursday got CO wad...i 10am then reach there...i actually dun wan to go wan...then go lor...then reach there Siti got call my name la...but i was feeling quite angry so i didnt reply her...then i cant find my Er Hu in the store room wad then i got even frustrated...then took the music stand liao stand outside the music room dun wan to go in...cos I feel that I'm like transparent to them...then went in liao found my Er Hu cos the Sec 1 guy took it...then they learn new song liao...i dunno wad so i see and hear how they play then follow them play lor...since i'm the world's stupiest, idoiticest, ugliest, failurest and slackiest person...i shall grant vanish from this world...some ppl lie to me that i haf a bright future ahead..but it's not true...
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1:42 PM
Tuesday, June 07, 2005
todae went to LCCI then after that went out wif Shu Wen and ling...actually i went to Shu wen's house 1st then we too bored den go out...went bowling...i slack or should i say that is i'm so stupid...only got 77...haix...slack...then went to eat dinner...then went walk a while then go home...dunno whether isit sad or hapi...then reach home...mum and dad haven come home...then watch tv and do poa...after that stare into space...dun wan to do poa le...no mood to do...
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11:23 PM
few days didnt write blog le...2 days ago went oout wif Shu Wen and Eliz...then saw a yellow Lamborghini Murcielago...cool man...1st time in my life for almost 15 years that i saw one...i wan it...or a Ferrari Enzo...but too bad...no chance...then todae went LCCI again...so boring...but next Wed not going cos in Malaysia...i hope that the trip to Malaysia would be fun...cos my dad's friends are going wif their children but only 1 or 2 are girls bah...then others are guys...then abt my age...hope to make friends wif them or else i will be lonely at there again...haix...cos my aunt also going then she surely stick wif my mum wan lor...then actually todae going to meet Estelle wan but change date le...then ytd Qian Hui sms me whether wan to go for a talk on Sat but actually dunno they 2 much...but hope to meet up they 2 to noe more abt each other cos i wan to make more friends...but say until make friends ar...my grandmother's birthday coming then maybe Calvin korkor and his girlfriend, Wendy got go...and i hope that they go...btw...Calvin is also known as Wen Loong...my cousin which i had a crush on him last time but now not...Susanne jie, can meet you up and you must go to my birthday chalet ok? as well as, Cassandra meimei, Calvin korkor and Wendy jiejie ok?
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1:57 PM
Saturday, June 04, 2005
todae stay at home from morning till i go for organ lesson...arnd 1 plus, Shu Wen came...she eat aloe vera again...haha...then i doing theory hw but dunno how to do liao then dun do...or else if i continue, i will get insane and lose temper...then Shu Wen played PS2 then i play computer...but we take turns to play...then i chatted wif a gal called Estelle...12 years old...then she asked me whether i can be her godsister and she asked me can meet her anot then i say okie...she called me then at 1st i think she was like not that friendly but when she called, i think that she is quite friendly...we exchange phone nos...then i wonder wad's gonna happen when i meet her wif Shu Wen they all...but i really hope that i can make more new friends...then arnd 4plus went for organ and i knew that i was going to be late then took a cab but "lonbang" Shu Wen cos she going to library...then todae everyone played a song on the organ...i played the French song but in Jap style...but was quite hapi yet sad cos teacher asked me to practise more...haix...then on the way home, i took a MRT then while waiting, a gal abt my age look at me then laugh, then she told her parents and sister then they also laugh...then i took out my mirror see nth wrong wad...then actually i wanted to talk back wan then forget it...however, i'm still even thinking of the incident that happen in the lift...how can i forget this...then went home then reliased that i forget to buy Ah Seng present as he's gonna leave tml...sobx...then went to Orchard on my own...went to Heeren...nth nice...then while on the way to PS, saw Stefanie and Lilian...quite hapi cos at least still got 2 ppl smile to me...actually didnt notice wan is Stefanie noticed wan...then ytd also saw them in